Nothing important...

Final entry.

2010-10-22T00:31:00.000+08:00

Yup. It means what it means. As a courtesy and a token of my appreciation, I want you to be informed. You may not be many, but you mean something to me. Thanks for stopping by but I hope this will be your last. Adieu!

what PBL can do to you

2010-10-05T06:32:00.002+08:00

As far as PBL goes, I like it. It's nice to revise and discuss about actual cases. As for PBL mates, well just hope that you get lucky, not to get stuck with an obnoxious-narcissistic-I-know-all guy. Thank God I'm not, I'm just imagining the possibilities.

If you go out there, metaphorically speaking, you'll find thousands of videos, blogs, and forums mocking the new iPad. One of my favourite joke is by Seth Meyers on SNL. "Apple said that, Monday, they sold more than 300,000 iPads on the first day of its launch, ushering a new era of people buying things in order to find out what they are." And of course, if you're a fan of madtv, I'm sure you've seen the 'iPad' they had quite some time ago. The funny thing about that skid is Apple iPad is not even out yet. Can't believe that of all those geeks working with apple, none came across the video that have at least 2 million hits on youtube.

So, jokes. Hmm... My brief history of jokes. Like many other kids I also have my fair share of being made fun of. I guess this has somehow shaped my views on jokes. And of course since the birth of internet, viral videos has massively contributed as well.

I remember someone from my gaming network, brought up the term 'inside joke'. He said, 'aren't they all are?' Got me thinking since. Relatively, every joke is an inside joke. You need at least two people to agree that a joke is funny, a joke, if not, it will be just a weird or a lame story that will make people tell you to stop talking about it. So, the two people makes up for the 'inside' part. Their camaraderie or brotherhood formed upon the acknowledgement of a funny statement or remark... I have just lost my train of thoughts. I'm gonna leave that one there.

So, I guess (I've used the words 'I guess' too many times. By now YOU should know whatever I'm saying is just fictional and don't even make sense. So go have your philosophical and thoughts argument somewhere else cos I'm not gonna justify any of this or use the words 'I guess' any more. Makes me look like I have a spine of a gummy bear.) Wow, talk about digressing.

Among many other guilty pleasures that I subscribe to, jokes are one of them. Of course for a joke to fall under the category of 'guilty pleasure' there are certain criteria that they have to fulfil. Although I will not describe these criteria as one's moral compass is different from the other thus making it pointless to define my ideas of guilty pleasure.

I write a lot of 'unimportant' thing here (I assume that people understand that titles or headings aren't just headings and titles) cos I need to let off steam once in a while. One of the stuff that I like to let off here are funny things. Things that I found funny. (Redundant much?) (I need to stress the 'I' on that last phrase) Thoughts, observations, fantasies, whatever. Laughter is the best medicine right?

One thing I learn from jokes is to look things from different perspectives. To be open minded. Let loose. Chillax. Jokes that I like require the least amount of ability to read between the lines, grasp irony, and understand metaphors. Not much intelligence needed. Same goes with the stuff here. I often imagine talking to a stranger and having a laugh when I write these posts. I also learn to not always take things too personally. Well, I'm good in theory, not so much in practice.

Bottom line? Stop reading and go somewhere else if you're still asking this question. Like many ghost movies, thriller, gore, action, people watch it because they want what the movie offers, footage of a girl's room while she sleeps or maybe Bruce Willis fighting a tank. Not life lessons given by zombies. :p

hit and miss

2010-10-04T01:41:00.004+08:00

A quick recap.

The weekend is a bit rough. Cough made me sound a bit different, and almost killed me. A little sleep deprived and just had 8 sneezes in one sitting. (You won't find this interesting when you've seen a guy did almost 20 in one sitting. A friend back in school. His normal sneezes are around 4, 5.)

Went out for a thriller, Buried. The acting was good, the premise was fresh but the substance was just null. You get anxious at times but there's nothing much to take home. I would call it a documentary if it does. I get accused of being bias. Beats me if I know why. My thought, it's a hit and miss. It's either you like it, or hate it.

I came across this thought. Save the planet. If you're in uk, in fact, even if you're not, I'm sure you've heard of the term 'recycle' or 'recycling' or 'carbon footprint' (I'm not sure if I've ever heard of carbon footstep, until recently). So if you heard any activist shouting save our planet, you pretty much will have the same picture in your mind of what they meant.

What intrigued me was, do we really need to save the planet. In fact can we really save our planet? I mean, what are we to this big lump of mass? We're just like staphylococcus on the skin of someone who has never bothered to shower. The earth has been here for millions or maybe even trillions of years before any of us were born. And it probably has been through more s#itty organisms that us (And by s#itty I mean ungrateful and disrespectful toward the earth and selfish, at least some of us). I don't mean to pull the holier-than-thou crap (I can't think of why I could or would), I'm merely describing an observation.

That being said, I'm sure earth can take care of itself. Maybe that's why it had ice age or meteor causing all those crap before. Maybe the dinosaur was being all "fruitful and multiplying" on it's face, it decided to just wipe them out. And in our case, maybe the earth just wanted to see iPhone 4. So it decided to keep us for a few centuries, even though we have been effing (If you don't get the reference to Woody Allen's quote above) around for quite a while now, until steve jobs finally create one, and it's time to call for another 'apocalypse'.

I don't know what's the message behind this (If there is any to begin with). The very least I can say is let's change the chant to 'Save yourself', they might actually care. (Studies show that people react more positively to request when 'you' is used)

Lunch quickie

2010-09-27T20:20:00.001+08:00

Im blogging with my iPhone. How cool is that? Haha.

Anyway, the time window I have now is not enough for me to review a lecture cos it's time consuming to walk to the library (I'm just lazy to move my ass from thus common room). So i decided to blog. I'm already on the net anyway.

One train of thought that stood out today. Half way through the epidemiology lecture I just had this morning, I thought, 'I don't get enough sun here'. Apart from the cold climate and clothing, there is just not enough sunlight bathing this land of William Wallace (go watch Braveheart if you don't get that reference. Yes, you.) So vitamin D came to mind and I thought I'll do some reading on vit D supplement (dark skinned people are prone to developing rickettsia when they don't produce or get enough vit D. I haven't searched this yet but my tutor in PBL mentioned it. Probably worth mentioning.) Oh that actually what I wanted to talk about. In PBL, vit D was mentioned along with scottish weather.

That didn't sound exciting. Meh.

I guess my curiousity towards people will never die. Sometimes my method might be downright cold and manipulative. But who knows? Maybe one day I will publish a paper that can cure some of our society's illness. Maybe not anything like cancer but it might reduce the prevalance of the likes of narcissism and as such (I used the word 'prevelance' and actually know what it means. I feel so smart now haha. Ok maybe not so much).

I gotta stop now cos it seems the longer I type the more annoying this becomes (typing on small screen. You should already know that I'm annoying. So I don't need to mention that)

p/s: I don't really mean all those I posted before. Well at least part of me don't. It was my alter ego. He hijacked my body and posted those. I do like bubbly music. And I guess he thinks he can get girls by being such a jerk.

Rant

2010-09-27T02:03:00.001+08:00

I can't believe with all the time, the place, the internet speed, I still am blogging in the uni lab. Sheesh.

I have mixed feelings about this blog. Everytime I think about it, it's sad that I need a blog to express myself. Does this mean I don't have enough friends? T.T I don't blame them. I'm not that cool anyway. On the bright side, I often feel that at least I have someone to say stuff to, even it means some stranger who accidentally clicked my page because they googled 'clearing throat sound'. Oh wait, that is actually quite sad too. I'm depressed now -_-''

I hate bubbly songs. They make me feel bubbly. Let me just stop you there. DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT imagine me being bubbly. I will not be responsible if you can't sleep at night after this. I mean, I've lived for at least 21 years (I'm not 22 yet ;)) and the last time I remember me being bubbly is like never. So do yourself and me a favor don't imagine me being bubbly please.

Anyway, recently, thank to tessa (don't google her name, she's nobody) I found this band called the hush sound. I've never heard of them before maybe you have but whatever. I'm not claiming like I discovered them or anything, like some people like to do. meh.

Back to the bubbly bit. Yeah, I mean, you know me right? I'm all cool and stuff. So obviously I don't roll with bubbly. I mean duh? Now I've been listening to their music all day I actually feel like doing good things to other people. Argh!! It is just not right!

Ok, I have run out of things to write. I should have drew a mind map before I started writing. It would have probably helped me. But it's too late now. I'm just gonna waste your time by making you read this. Sorry.

Oh no! I said sorry! Man I should really stop listening to bubbly music and being all nice and stuff *anrgy face*

Sekolah Kebangsaan Taman Nirwana.

2010-08-03T15:59:00.000+08:00

The last few weeks, I've been, twice, back at my primary school. My friend said she needed some help with a program for the UPSR students. Well, being unemployed and all, I jumped in right away.

I was surprised, and slightly disappointed, when one of the teacher, my former BM teacher, said that these pupils needed help. Apart from the obvious academic supplement that they could use, it's the soul that was the teacher's concern. It seemed that a LOT has changed, over the 10 years, since the last time I was in their shoes. It seemed that their attitude is different. Attitude towards the teachers, I can't say much but enough to know that it has raised concerns. And judging from what I know about kids these days, I can see why.

I was told that we were to help them realise the impact of other things apart from grades on our success. Fair enough for me. It is in fact that these stuff that contribute so much to the success, whatever 'success' means to one.

The first session was on the lots that were doing better, grade wise, than the rest. Hmm, grades, that is another good issue, but a topic for another post. Back to my story, I was given the task to communicate the coordinator's module, which I must say is very excellent relatively, to a class of students who are at the top of their year. Easy enough, I can see enthusiasm beaming from some of them. Firing off questions out of their mouths from God knows where. There were some quiet ones but these are those who, I see, potentially can be someone like Muadz Zubir. 'Diam-diam ubi' like the wise one would say haha.

It was quite lively most of the time, although I had to, once in a while, provoke them with a little smack on the back of their heads, figuratively that is, to keep them engaged. The second group, the less performing, grade wise, is as lively. Except that it was slightly for the wrong reason.

We were given a good 3 hours for our session with them. I'm not sure how much they can take in such short hours, but for me I learned a lot. It's refreshing, for me, cos I don't hang out a lot with young ones. I had fun. The very least, I can say, for them, is that they had fun too, which is not having to go for some classes. Good times, less class means more fun.

Towards the end one of the sessions, Khadijah, the coordinator, also a med student in RCSI, finished off with a good line. "Ilmu itu suci dan ia hanya akan tinggal dalam hati yang suci, insyaAllah." It sounds so simple, yet many fail to realise.

E.A.S.Y

2010-08-03T14:01:00.001+08:00

To my delight, there's another match for Nirwana Shock to play. This means, I have another busy weekend ahead of me. More of a tiring weekend ahead of me. But I'm not complaining.

The EPL is starting soon with the community shield match lined up on the 8th. One point I'd like to make, when the ad was aired on astro sports channels, the ad seemed to be taking a side. The voice said something like,"We're going to do one thing, and one thing only, beat chelsea." Something like that. I'm not surprised, really. But that just point out how blatantly the guys who made the ad assumed that there is no chelsea fan watching. Dude, the blues won the silverware last year, show some respect would ya? Which reminds me of my early impression of Man U's malaysian fans, repulsive. Sorry guys, not all of ya, but those who made it to my head were those who were such.

On the other side, It's good to see that everyone has started to hate Chelsea again haha

The EPL seemingly has lost some of its 'premier' essence before the season has actually started. Joe Cole went to Anfield and claiming that Liverpool is still a threat in the title race. I will have no problem even if he said that Liverpool is going to win the Champions' League. But the fact that Chelsea fail to met his economic requirement was the only reason he chose to leave make such statement sounded so weak, to me at least. Anyway, he's really not that good any more. His lack of appearance last season for Chelsea was not all because of injuries, makes it less surprising when Ancelotti made no objection to his leaving.

Money corrupting the league is not any more news. Man City buying players, like housewives on sunday morning 'pasar', looked rattled when FA launch a last minute attempt to save english football (the 25 players and home grown rules) from sinking even deeper. I can see their concern after South Africa. I remember reading this on the net.

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You may host one of the best league in the world, that doesn't necessarily means you'll have the best team. High profile team, sure, but fail to deliver. I don't want to talk about world cup anymore. Like boycotting Israel's allies, world cup is not the 'in' thing to talk about now.

Football is not gonna be the only sports on highlight this coming August (Wait, we ARE in august. I think I've watch too much sports channel previews that I'm starting to sound like one. This coming August, Baling Selipar World Cup coming to you live from Kg Gajah Bertandang, only on Warung Sukan Networks this August!) Anyway, FIBA World Championship tips off in Turkey this month, the men's final. I can imagine spending most of my time in front of the tv this month. But Ramadhan's in a week time, so I might (definitely) need to change that vision of mine.

That's funny.

2010-08-02T21:37:00.000+08:00

It was for those rarities in life that today I willingly, without any persuasion, decided that I'm going to stay at home and not go to the court. Apart from the fact my body feels like I had been given horse tranquillisers, I am mentally not capable of playing any basketball today. In shorter word, tired.

I guess after putting the songs 'Winner' and 'I'm not afraid' on loop yesterday, I ran a bit short on will power. Note to self, do not get pumped up listening to songs if there is no outlet of expressing it. I mean, it's quite common for someone to listen to music before big games to mentally psyche themselves. But then again, note the object in the phrase, big games. I should have known better as for sure there was no big games after midnight last night. Sigh.

So I picked up a book. Unfortunately, unlike my body, my mind was on hyper mode. I couldn't read a single line without being distracted with a wild thought. If my mind were a boy, he'll be jumping on and off the wall while picking a fight with his friends. Thus why I stopped and am writing this now.

I wanted to blame the kids who are playing outside but because of my sensible nature (hahaha) I decided to ignore them. If anything, I thought, I should be telling myself to stop listening to them instead of trying to shut them up. I know, to some, this will quickly trigger a self-defence mechanism (to protect the ego). Because it does make one to feel inferior to the kids due to failing to control them to make the situation more favourable to you. But I AM really that cool. (hahaha)

For me, children are like sponge. (This is how I finally figure out why they love Mr Squarepants so much, they identified with him) (Hopefully I used the word 'identified' here correctly and with the correct preposition) (These brackets are starting to look like English lessons. Miss Jas, you should join in) Anyway, like sponge, they soak up things indiscriminately. I read this one instance as Alexander Lowen was giving an example on how a certain characteristic developed within a child.

One of the ways children are made to adjust to the new order is called "letting them cry themselves out." The mother puts the child into the crib at night to sleep. It is bedtime. But the sense of aloneness and the loss of contact with the mother's body terrifies the child, who begins to scream and cry. No animal mother would fail to respond to a baby's cry. Some human mothers believe, however, that to respond would be wrong. To give in to a child's crying will spoil the child. Besides, they have been told, crying is good for a child. It strengthens the lungs. So no response is made, and the child continues to cry.

The first time this happens, the child may cry for hours before falling asleep, exhausted. If the same procedure is repeated the next night, the child will not cry so long before falling asleep. The mother may think the child has learned a lesson, but, quite simply, the child doesn't have the energy for a repeat performance. Sleep comes more easily because exhaustion sets in more quickly. After several experiences of this kind, the child learns to give up the struggle for contact with the mother. In effect, the child has cut off the longing for this contact and so no longer feels the pain of frustration. A new reality, in which the desire for intimacy and closeness is not expressed, has been accepted.

Narcissism: Denial of the true self.

He later explained how some parents response with violence to some of the crying. Obviously, the effects, as he explained it, is, if not worse, as bad. Some might find these acts as acceptable, or understandable, or normal. Well, either he was the baby or somebody need to put some sense into him.

I know a kid of about 5 or 6 years young. He is pretty much a tape recorder for human behaviour. You do one thing in front of him, he'll do the exact thing in front of you right afterwards. This has made his mother very concious of what people 'teach' him.

One thing that I like a lot about kids is their perspective. It's pure. It's naive. Unlike us, old people, we have established a certain way of thinking, how we look at things. For one who supposedly is a reflector, experiences with people and this world can turn someone into a very realistic (pessimistic, in your words) person. To some, it's easier to tell the possible source of a car accident than where are the wonderful places a car can take you. Not to them. Like the apple that the fell on Newton's head, the car to a kid is fill with questions waiting to be answered. It is not surprising to witness a kid surgically removes every insides of model cars from his father's collection and later sends them on their way into the junk yard's inventory.

This is a bit unstructured. Oh well, has it ever been otherwise?

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Isaac Asimov once wrote "The most exciting phrase to hear in science, the one that heralds new discoveries, is not 'Eureka!' (I found it!) but 'That's funny...'" And I wondered why babies laugh so much x)

nom nom nom

2010-07-08T23:05:00.001+08:00

I'm like a sampan with just one paddle. I keep paddling but I'm just moving around in a circle. And now, I am being sucked into a whirlpool of sucky-ness and laziness. Last few days have been nothing but unproductive. I did not read a single page of a book (I partly blame the amount of facts I have to retain reading that book). I had to make a change just to keep things fresh, so I started reading another book, which hopefully I will finish.

Also, I've given up looking for job. I will now be a full time couch potato. Hoo..ray... -_-

Current issues, hmmm. Since the last sort of 'shocking' result in world cup, this Paul the Octopus octopus has gain a massive amount of attention. It was said that it has so far made 100% accurate prediction on world cup match results. Impressive I must say.

So, this cephalopod is from Germany. As some of you might have known, the germans lost last night. From what I heard, there have been death threats. "Sashimi!" screamed the germans and also the argentinians. (Ok, I have no idea how those groups of people serve their squid. So I went for japanese instead)

But, some of you might have guess, this has only attract ridicule. Well, if not from the general public, at least from me haha. The germans are pissed cos the squid didn't pick their team to win the world cup and the argentinians think the squid jinxed the match against the germans. People really are going backwards, aren't they? Why the heck would anyone ask a squid about the future? Sure, it guessed it right every time. One word. LUCKY.

I can't argue that these octopuses are, in their own way, smart. I mean, I've seen some mimic a flounder, or a coral, or even open a jar. But predicting the future? Nah, that's just too much.

Goreng pon sodap!

rawrrr!!!

2010-07-01T11:58:00.000+08:00

3 days in a row without basketball *sigh* What else can I say?

I've been missing quite a lot of world cup matches lately. I managed to watch one the other day. Paraguay v Japan. And what do you know? It was the most boring game since that Brazil v Portugal. Don't get me wrong, I'm Brazil's biggest fan. Not only the game, the former, was boring, but it ended up with a penalty shoot out. If it was 15 years ago, sure, I love penalty shoot out. Now, it's just cruel and lame. It's ok with me if they drew 3 all or 2 all, but it was nil nil. I fell asleep before 2nd extra time started and I'm not complaining.

I rooted (is this word right?) for Japan, but they were playing with a lil less ambition that evening. Well, at least except for that Honda guy. He was said to be the quickest man to be fouled, that ought to say something. Anyhoo, someone had to lose, and I guess it was them that night.

Adding to my rant, Katy Perry's california girl is stuck at the back of my head now. To be honest, I could use some of those freshly pierced girls (ok explicit content, kids close your eyes now!). Nah, I'm just kidding. I like me self some country girls, yeehaw!! haha I'm still kidding. I prefer barang buatan Malaysia. It's all about the home grown.

Seriously, do you really think I'm that disgusting? I'm not that disrespectful. Objectifying women is a thing of the past. Barbaric to be exact. Although regretfully is not uncommon nowadays. From the words of the slightly wise, 'What's going on with the world, mama? People livin' like they ain't got no mama.'

Right, this the actual reason for this post haha. I found this on yesterday's paper.
Read here.

The main issue in the article is manners in general (obviously!), but I like to stress, again, on what she say about smiling.(By now, I'm starting to think that I'm a bit obsessive bout this issue *freaking out*) It's true what she said that malaysian don't smile much. Although to me, it's easier to smile at strangers sometimes than it is to your friends. You know, with all the complication of relationship, feelings and emotion. I mean, it's just a common courtesy. Get this, frequently received feedback when I smile to people, my friends especially, 'Ha, Wan! Apehal senyum-senyum?' I know I'm a bit sarcastic or cynical at times, but that doesn't mean I'm always a bad human being, sheeesh. haha.

I'll just stop at that. When it comes to manner, I'm honestly a bit retarded myself, especially around old folks. Minta maaf ye pak cik, mak cik hehe. On a slightly different point, I don't want the posts to be too long. Usually the posts are either about facts or just some personal stuff. If I write too long about facts, I'm afraid I might get it wrong and if I write too long about myself, I'm afraid you might get it wrong.

The tittle? It just eases my stress a bit x)

Bafana, bafana...

2010-06-27T21:32:00.000+08:00

Let's talk football.

Earlier, I've said that I'm not rooting for any team in the world cup but you can't escape the fact that you're gonna favour one team over the other in matches. Usually for me, the team that I favoured, lose. USA, New Zealand, South Korea, Switzerland and a few others. The teams I mentioned, I don't like them except for one reason, their fighting spirit. But of course it takes more than just spirit to win games.

If you read the news a few days ago, there was this fiasco over some dutch women and their orange dress. It was the first time I've ever heard of the term marketing ambush. I mean I can understand that these companies paid big bucks to get the opportunity to advertise their stuff during the tournament and it hurts to see some other companies do the same thing for free, but should you really jail these girls for this?

This is what I think about this new found concept (new to me at least), marketing ambush. We all know that Adidas is the 'official partner' for the world cup right? But when you try to think of an advert that links to the world cup, you would probably remember the 'write you future' ad. This is, however, a Nike ad. Can you think of an Adidas one?

Ok, how about a lil subtle one. If you're not a football player or a die-hard-fan, this include me, you will probably not gonna notice this. How many of those bright orange coloured boots were used by the players? Also, compare this to the predator, or puma king or any other brand of boots. I can't guarantee but surely you will find more of the slightly annoying coloured boots. Oh, I'm talking about that mercurial vapour.

So, my point is, how is this not marketing ambush? I'm no economist so right me if I'm wrong, please.

Because you love me

2010-06-27T20:48:00.001+08:00

Last friday, we all left for Segamat to send my lil sister to UiTM Johor.

I drove all the way to and from Segamat. I found that route E23 Tangkak-Segamat is not the road you want to be on when it's dark. Trust me, I've only been there during the day. I can imagine how terrifying it can be.

Anyway, this is the first time my sister is gonna be away from home. I mean like really away from home. Teknik KL to me doesn't count cos she went on and off the hostel and it's barely 30 mins from our house.

So here's the reason why I post this. This is a lil tribute to my mom, who has been missing her lil girl. I mean she misses me more when I went to college and Edin but of course she misses my sister too, though maybe not as much haha

The lyrics are in past tense but that doesn't mean the song is any less appropriate. Enjoy! x)

I'm everything I am, because you love me

good 'ol Lady Justice

2010-06-26T00:47:00.000+08:00

Have you ever been scratched by a cat, or chased by a dog? And that cat left a nasty scar on you hand or that dog rendered you cynophobia for life? I might have experienced similar events.

Have you ever heard of the word schadenfreude? Look it up if not. See, this where people go a bit dark. Some may view this as inhuman or unsympathetic but the word exists for a reason.

Let me get back to my questions. Imagine that after a while, this cat or dog suddenly appeares in front of you. The only difference is, it is now dead. Or even better, limping and begging for your mercy to help it nurse itself to health. What would you do? Would you quickly grab that yellow pages and phone the nearest vet? Would you kick it so hard that it dies, saying that you're trying to end its misery to justify your act? Would you just ignore and watch it gasp for its every breath? Or would you do the former but, giggle secretly as you wait for the anambulance(animal-ambulance, if such thing exists) to arrive?

Me? I have yet to be given such question, so I'll have to wait and see.

memento

2010-06-20T09:09:00.003+08:00

Upon knowing that I have a 10 hours transit in Dubai, I went for a search for movies. I figured that there's no better way (obviously there are) to crunch a few hours out of that wait.

So I started with the IMDB top 250 list. I quickly crossed out anything before 1990 and those that I've watched. So, my first pick was 'Memento'.

Went on the movie's IMDB page and the cast to me was quite 'dodgy'. Not many names were familiar but I put it on my list anyway cos the plot sounded interesting.

I was quite surprised that I've never heard of this movie before. Well, maybe cos it was out in 2000 and back then I don't have Firdaus to update me on the oscar nominee list. Also, maybe because I'm still stuck with Kelab Disney Malaysia and stuff.

The poster is slightly less than boring but I cant be arsed to flip another

page of google result page with this connection

Ok, on with the movie. I'll try not to give too much, if by any chance anyone who reads this haven't watch the movie yet. To be honest, one of the reasons I decide to review this film is the fact that you shouldn't read any reviews on this movie until you have watched it. It's not really a fact I reckon, it's more of an advice. Yes, a paradox, maybe. On that point, not much point in reading a review after you've watched a movie, isn't it? Anyway, I digress.

So, the movie is about a guy who has a memory problem and is out to avenge his wife, who is murdered.

That's it. That's all I can give. Anything more, I'll spoil it and I seriously can't be bothered to think about what I can and cannot tell you about this movie hehe

One reason why I like this movie is because it's a great brain teaser. It's sure to keep you at the edge of your seat. The directing is almost epic. The storyline is near supreme. It might border ridiculous for some but I thought otherwise. It is those kind of movies which you can leave the cinema and actually talk about it. And I mean not just, 'How's the movie?' 'Oh, it was nice.'

Fine, that might not have happened to me but still, everyone has at least 2 voices in their head, don't we?.. Whatever.

If you enjoy thrillers, I can say that this is highly recommended for you. Period x)

haven't met you yet

2010-06-15T12:05:00.002+08:00

Another thing that I like. This song

I think this song is almost perfect. You are singing to someone but you're not really singing to anyone. I mean you kinda know it's for someone but you don't really know who that someone is. To me, it's almost gossip-proof, and this is very good x)

The lyrics are quite cool too

I might have to wait
I’ll never give up
I guess it’s half timin’, and the other half’s luck
Wherever you are
Whenever it’s right
You’ll come outta nowhere and into my life

It's pretty true if you think about it, she'll come out of nowhere and you should never give up. Apart from asking it from God, you still need to work for it, right? All when the time is right x)

broccoli

2010-06-15T11:41:00.004+08:00

This is one of those things which I miss when I'm in malaysia. I mean I love my kangkung belacan and all and broccoli is nothing compare to this but I guess I've grown into liking broccoli too.

It's easy to cook or I'm not sure if the way I prepare it qualify to be defined as cooked. Anyway, yes, you boil 'em for a few minutes and you're good to go.

Here is just a few green goodness it provides

Broccoli helps prevent heart disease
Broccoli contributes to skin health
Broccoli helps in construction and strengthening bones
Eating broccoli helps in destroying cancer cells
Broccoli consider to have a cooling effcet
Broccoli can benefit for the liver and eye energy
Broccoli contains 200% of daily recommended consumption of vitamin C
Almost 90 milligrams in 100 grams

Why I post something about food here is a mystery to me too x)

basketbleh...

2010-06-15T01:03:00.003+08:00

Finally, my legs are healing. Hopefully tomorrow's training won't be so hard or I might be skipping a few afternoons again. Coach have mercy.

I watched the finals today, the 5th game. Have I told anyone that I hate Paul Pierce so much? I don't know why but I just can't like him.

Quote of the day, from one of the finals ad.

"Defense is your best friend, baby"

Same thing with world cup, I will stand on the neutral ground and hope that the finals will stretch until the 7th game. More games = more fun x)

If I'm gonna have a favourite sportswoman, it'll probably be her.

Maybe because she's quite hot too xp

Oh, these are just some jumbled thoughts on basketball x)

neutral

2010-06-15T00:48:00.000+08:00

I realised something important. I think I got a little carried away with this neutral thing.

Background story. I've decided earlier that I will not root for any team this time during the world cup. I figured that every team has a very good chance of winning the cup. This of course was way before the mountains of injuries were reported and before the asian teams were putting some good show on.

Back to my point. Every time I watch these world cup games, I always find myself willing a draw. It was pretty stupid cos I see myself flipping side every time a goal is scored, although there weren't many in the earlier games.

Anyway, world cup seems to be lacking in quality and entertainment. I don't know, maybe it's just me, failing to choose a good game to watch. Or maybe teams like Argentina and France have to step it up a notch and not waste my 2 hours.

tooth fairy exam

2010-06-14T22:57:00.003+08:00

I tried to find a good subject to write on but I failed repeatedly. I guess it was a kind of writers' block or whatever you call it.

Exam

I think it's a british film. It's a psychological thriller which kinda what made me watch it aside from the fact that I had 5 more hours in my flight and I couldn't sleep. It's a common psychological thriller. I mean, it's like something you'd do in a team building program. You put a couple of people in a stressful environment and you see how they change and their true colours come out yada yada yada...

It's not really an awesome movie, but it's a good watch. I hate the fact that there was too many hidden plot or sort of a hidden plot. Well maybe that's just because I hate it when I couldn't figure out the movie xp I'll give it a 2 out of 5. If the poster can only produce a 4 stars review, then you shouldn't be expecting too much x)

Tooth Fairy

Ok, I, in the past, might have been one of the biggest fan of The Rock, so I'm not gonna apologise if this sounds a little too biased. First of all, stop laughing if you think it's funny for me to watch this movie. It's, to me, like one of those feel good movie. It's like watching an animated movie from Pixar or Disney. Plot wise, nothing unexpected. Main guy do bad thing, main guy screws up, main guy realises, main guy makes up, main guy wins. 3 out of 5.

to the world cup!

insert title here

2010-06-13T07:55:00.001+08:00

hello. i'm awfully bored. been up since england v usa match. amazed that i didn't fall asleep halfway through the game. been only surfing and stuff. with the speed that we subscribed to, you can expect not much has been done.

going back to the game just now. i feel sorry for green. takes a lot to get back and have a go at it again. kudos.

i changed the title. thought that this might encourage more posts in the future. i looked too much into substance that i often fell short. who am i kidding? i'm all about style haha nah i'm just kidding. style is all about me muahahaha ok it's not funny. fine.

i have a 'practice session' this morning. not sure if my legs had enough rest from the previous one but i aint gonna miss basketball session. it's getting very scarce nowadays (yes, i've only been home for a week, but still)

and yeah, i miss LoL xp

M.I.A

2010-05-27T16:31:00.001+08:00

Yeah, I know. That term's supposed to be for my last post, but wth right? haha

Someone once told me, I'll never stop writing here even if I try to. I guess it's true. Once in a while I would like to just say what ever I want and not be responsible for it haha

As for today, I got nothing much. I'm psyched to go home. Of course a lot of work to be done before I go back, but I just can't wait for all the basketball I'm gonna have and make up for. Plus, I'm gonna be eating my mak's cooking again :D

I've always told myself to stop writing as more and more words are typed I sounded more and more like an idiot, but who ever listens to me xp

A lil tribute for the boys in blue

anyhoo, I'm rooting for suns this year and Kobe V has 'buy me' written all over it!

kerana nila setitik

2010-02-10T01:42:00.003+08:00

another uneventful week I must say. well, to be fair, eventful would mean nothing more really.

embarrassed myself a bit at PBL but that's nothing unusual. misthought an LDL and HDL discussion for atherosclerosis'. they're not much apart really. so I'm gonna pass that this time.

got a lil carried away with my 3 days weekend. forgot that it was monday and missed my zapin practice. although I somehow felt a tiny person inside of me was merrily jumping up and down inside my belly haha

on the way back from PBL, that phrase came into my mind. I remembered that I didn't actually know what nila is until I actually see one when I was in STJ. I had to wash my own school clothes back then. so I was introduced to this 'thing' named nila (what is it called in english?)

before that, I've always pictured nila as tuba. I don't know if people know what that is but I once read in 'KAWAN' that it is used to kill lalang (what's lalang in english?). so I was used to picturing a colourless poison like arsenic or something. but arsenic is white isn't it? what the hell.

so the point is I've always accepted that peribahasa from then on. cos logically it's pretty flawless. once you know there's a bloody, colourless poison in the milk you'd bloody throw it away. BUT, now that I know it's not really deadly (relatively at least) and you can actually see it in milk (cos it's like throwing a can of blue paint onto a white canvas), I'm starting to doubt the peribahasa's credibility as to teach people about life.

I mean, you're not really done if there's a drop of the blue thing in your belanga full of milk. unless you're slow enough, you can just quickly scoop it out and have the milk with your favourite breakfast cereals the next morning (although I highly doubt anyone who would keep their milk in belanga would have cereals for breakfast).

I guess to a certain extent it is applicable to life. if a mistake is done and was kept uncorrected for a long time it'll eventually ruin the whole thing, whatever it was. at that point, yes, rosak susu sebelanga. what you have to do is just go to tesco, get a new bottle of milk and try to use a fridge this time. if not, try to keep your milk as far away as possible from your washing machine or where ever you put your nila.

p/s: I like it when I type the whole thing, read it again, and realise I've only gone more stupid as the number of words adds haha x)

(put title here)

2010-02-06T04:15:00.002+08:00

I've always been more expressive, writing wise, in english. as crappy as my grammar may be, I still feel so.

Ouh the title? I've always like irony, or paradox or whatever you call that.

I kinda blame it on the hours TV3 spent on american tv shows, american music, american cartoons and so on. And yeah, games that are made in english. Well, I can't just blame everything on them. I could have studied harder and open a game developer empire so that all the fat kids around the world would have to learn malay in order to play my super-duper-awesome-cool-ultra-special game. And I'll be super rich.

Actually there is really no point on this post. I'm just gonna ramble about football and stuff. Need to let it all out.

Arsenal is playing like my friends and I when we were in standard 4 every evening. They're rubbish. Although I have a feeling that this is going to bite me in the arse later on (this is just a subtle way of paying my insurance just in case chelsea get their arses kicked this sunday).

Chelsea was disappointing last tuesday. Drew against hull.

I watched, or rather rewarded myself with, the other day the documentary on James Lebron and the Fab 5. Not the gay fab 5 we saw on tv. Made miss basketball back home. And it couldn't get worse, the 2 invites that I got to play basketball had to be during my PBL session, I mean the time they were playing. Ah, don't rub it in. T.T

I'm off now, late for something.

p/s: this has nothing to do with the accident I had last night. I watched ugly betty xp

Gossips, uuu...

2010-02-06T02:53:00.004+08:00

By the way, the three 'u's up there supposed to make a sound like when your lips make that O shape. I couldn't figure out the exact way of describing it, so I've described it here instead of in the title box. haha

Anyway, I'm not gonna talk about dirt that I have on people here in Edinburgh or celebrities or in fact anyone. It's just that the last few weeks, I've constantly bumped into things that are gossips or somehow related to gossips.

Be it in PBL, during dinner, on the bus, at Tesco, or even on the net. Actually, especially on the net.

I asked myself why would anyone be so interested in somebody else's life, private life, so much? I asked myself again why would I be interested in basketballers so much? in footballers so much? I guess I would make up excuses and say that these might affect might experience watching football. Cos it's all about the experience, isn't it? huh

But the difference between me and this people is that I don't go to certain extent to extract the truth, or in mose cases just to make up a truth. Most of the time, these guys don't mean crap to me. Avram Grant can go to a brothel and all I can say about that is good for him, he's probably going to hell anyway haha (forgive the harsh humour here)

Basically, my problem is not so much the end but the mean itself. To be honest, I had my chance to get information on people's private life too, well maybe not too private. I did it through interviews (was told to).

I can understand if these people are public figures or ministers but celebrities? They always say that,'ouh, these people are on the tv and I need to know what my children are watching'. Dude, you're 21, how is it possible for you to have a child that watches television and actually understands it? =.=

Some people spread rumours, slandering, pressuring the subject to come clean. As if there is something to come clean about. My advice, just ignore them as much as you can.

Conclusion, whatever I've said only backs people who have nothing to do with the things they have been said to have to do with. Sigh, english is so confusing...

L.O.L

2010-02-06T02:20:00.006+08:00

It's amazing how certain things can come around and bite you in the ass.

I used to consider myself to be well literate with computers. I had my first, well technically not mine, when I was 9 years old, 1997. It was Intel Celeron 100MgHz Windows '95. Yeah, in today's world we can call it a type writer. They say you'll always remember your first one.

Although, honestly, my main interest in computers is gaming. I still remember my first major game, which now I think had a pretty rubbish graphic, Doom 95. I can't believe I was so scared to play that game during the night or by myself. Although now I'm not sure whether I was horrified by the monsters or the horrendous graphics.

I couldn't complain much back then, cos I was a grateful child haha

I still remember paying close attention to the back of a CD case every time I was looking for a new game. Just to make sure that it can be used on my type writer.

I guess I was pretty up-to-date when it comes to computer related stuff back then. Now everything is just so fast, I couldn't be bothered any more.

So, I was a little sceptical when the acronym L.O.L first 'introduced' through the net. I made up all kind of arguments (inside of my head) just to oppose it's usage. 'What's wrong with haha? Not short enough?' and things like that.

Believe it or not, I've never used LOL up until now. It's not because I'm living in UK and trying to 'fit in' with the people or the culture here (although in this case lol has nothing special to do with European people), but simply because I play this game called League of Legends. Suddenly, all this hate towards the acronym just disappear.

Just for your information, LOL is a DOTA-like game.

I don't just use lol in chats (specific to game chats), but I constantly think about it. Even worse, now I'm experiencing LOL withdrawal symptoms. lol lol lol i wanna play lol........ (put zombie face here)

So I guess, LOL's karma has worked on me. It even made me post this entry dedicated on my reflection upon the whole thing. I don't know how this can benefit anyone or even LOL itself, but I assure you, it's evil!

Take home point, don't read post that has three letters as its title.

Edinburgh is not habitable

2010-01-08T21:16:00.001+08:00

again, it took ages for me to finally sit and type up something. I guess it is easier just to think about stuff and let it fly away from your head.

brief update. My laptop fried its hard disk a week or so ago. A sign of less update to come. Still contemplating whether I should make an effort to fix it now or should I just wait for summer and fix it back home, which is I found much cheaper than here. But i've decided that i could live without a lptop for 6 months, maybe.

Living in Edinburgh now has made me wish that I was a polar bear. Like wawan said, looking at the temperature is depressing enough. -8, -10, -11. Ouh home, how I miss thee T.T

We watched 2012 the other night. To be honest, it's boring. One reason that I'd watch it would be the effects but, unlike avatar, this one sucks. I can tell which one is real and which is the green screen. Btw, avatar rocks. Skip the cliche plot cos the graphic was epic. Totally worth the cold trip to omni.

Ouh the movie, 2012, kinda reminded me of my BM teacher back in primary. He asked the class, if US launch 100 nukes to every part of the world, will it be the end of the world? in another word, kiamat? With the logic of a 10 years old kid, who still thinks that life is just a big game, like The Sims, all of us answered yes. Though some tried to be cheeky and opposed, not really because they knew it's true, it's just that at that time you'd do anything to stand out, wouldn't you? well, our teacher point was it will not be the end of the world even if the sun hit the earth, and the earth miraculously survives, if it is not the time that God intended. 3 minutes later, our minds returned to figuring the madness behind Hukum DM. our brains were expected to contain nothing for more than 3 minutes. such blissful life. if only we can retain it.

I've always like language classes, well at least most of 'em. Miss Jas once said that one of the best thing about teaching English is that you can talk about almost anything under the sun (not her exact words but the message is more important). No one would forget the likes of cikgu sam and his classes. at least I wont. not to say other teachers are not as good. they were good, but some were more unique than others. I loved it when cikgu sam brought his astro jabat stories, trying to torture our brains, which had enough torturing from ten subjects, into thinking . He often challenged our fatih with logic with astro jabat's, sometimes, stupid ideas like how some things in islam teachings are not necessary for our time. plus he's a funny guy, so, it's quite hard, i mean difficult (lol), to forget.

Maybe I paid to much attention to those other stuff, I've never been good at language -_-'

read this if you like Chelsea FC

2009-12-01T22:30:00.001+08:00

I don't know how to start this post but I know how it's gonna end. It's not gonna be fruitful.

Football has a been a joy to watch lately. Chelsea is in its best form since winning the league title in 2005. 5 points ahead of man u, 10 of spurs, possibly 8 ahead of arsenal and, wait, do I need to talk about liverpool? ok maybe due to the recent win, I'll say 13 ahead of liverpool. although, I can't really see them getting back to their best form or maybe the top 4 again. or maybe it's just too early to say, me apologies.

Liverpool at one point was thought to have a lower chance of winning the title than man city. well, I guess this could be quite questionable since I got the odds off someone who looked through the bookies' sites. But that was not surprising to me cos looking at the form they were on back then, it's quite obvious why it was so. The merseyside derby, I thought liv was quite lucky (a bit bias here sorry, as if all the above wasn't lol). the first goal that pretty much decides the whole match came from an awful deflection of a shot that was nowhere near on target. and I think mascherano could be a little bit modest about his celebration on that goal. nonetheless, liverpool was the better side that day. everton was unlucky and lazy especially on the midfield. arteta is a really big loss to them.

Man united. I can't say anything less about them for the moment. yes, they lost to chelsea 2 weeks ago but a goal difference is not something that can put man u down. they were still playing as good. it's only chelsea who was better haha anyway, ryan giggs deserves to be on the hall of fame cos he is just phenomenal for a 36 year old man. rooney, he is already the icon for man u. so, nothing is needed to be said about his recent hat-trick.

Ok, recap for the 'heavywieght' match last sunday. it was a fair match and the result was as fair too. first off, arsenal lost a few good players. though I thought having walcott as a sub was a silly decision when you are having a match against chelsea, even if you're at home ground. it was quite obvious through the sudden impact he brought to the team once he came into the 2nd half. but it was too little too late. down 2 to nothing at half time, there was no way that arsenal will ever get back to having a chance of securing a point. maybe wenger wanted to play a more defensive game, which I doubt it.

drogba was, quoting guys from MOTD, "just unplayable". it pretty much sums up his performance that evening. and having the ever-so-cool anelka by his side pretty much signed chelsea's win for that evening.

Drogba, we salute you!

credit also to ashley cole, assisted 2 goals. arsenals fans were so mad with themselves for letting him go and having that arrogant gallas instead that they booed cole every time he got the ball. well, bad luck chummy, we got him now. and booing will only make it worse for you guys cos it might spur even better performance from him :D

Cole celebrates: Take that!

chelsea's defense was just impenetrable to arsenal. so many bodies were thrown at each shot attempt that pretty much shuts any chance left for arsenal to get back. if you are playing fantasy football, then this guys are your best bet at the moment.

7 blocked shots?

notice how I did not mention sagna's foul on anelka? xp

just as a side note, kakuta. if any of you watched the match against wolves and tell me that you're not impressed with that kid then probably you are not a football fan or a chelsea fan haha right now people might say the only thing that worries chelsea is the transfer ban. after looking how kakuta performed, chelsea shouldn't worry at all, I'd say. he is a bit arrogant but for a young player, he'll learn soon.

since I'm still on sports, I wanna share an experiment I did a few weeks ago during squash sessions.

Problem: I felt terrible when I sucked badly at squash.

Inference: I swear too much. :(

Hypothesis: The less I swear, the less terrible I will feel

Methods:

1st session - swear (as usual) every time I miss an easy shot

2nd session - substitute swearing with good (pretentious) words like sayangnye, bijaknye, and so on.

Results:

1st session - I sucked badly

2nd session - I still sucked badly but did not feel as bad :D

Conclusion: hypothesis proved. swearing not good. :)

Note: Swear words used were not of the F-kind, or S-kind, but mainly bongok, bodoh and so on. assumption made was, the worse the words are, the worse the effect will be.

So, I've decided to commit myself to a resolution, to stop swearing. Of course this does not come overnight, so I plan to slowly substitute swear words with non-swear words. This, I think, might produce other problem like sarcasm but I believe our mums used to do it so I might just give it a go. I don't know if announcing your resolution is a good or a bad thing, but I'm hoping to find out. I reckon that I might need some help, so I figured this could be a good way.

Again, as a side note, swearing is like alcohol isn't all bad (but the bad still overweighs the good by a million folds). For swearing, recently, if you google 'swearing' and 'pain', you'll probably find hundreds of scientific papers saying that swearing increases pain tolerance. it's probably true. in my PERSONAL opinion, swearing doesn't really cause too much problem to yourself if you are so used to it (if you consider bad personality is ok). but swear words hit other people differently. you can say f*** off to one of ye mates and probably giggle afterwards but to a girl, she might feel very offended or maybe cry. I used a girl as an example here because they are believed to be more emotional than boys (no sexism intended). cos one guy said (back to my earlier point),

"Pinker considers that words’ literal meanings (denotations) may be concentrated in the thinking part of the brain, the neocortex, especially in the left hemisphere. But their connotations are not just in the thinking area but linked to the amygdala, a primitive area of the brain that helps to give memories emotion. In scans of brain activity, the amygdala lights up when a person sees an angry face, or hears an unpleasant word such as a taboo swear word. These evoke emotional responses and even reading one causes the brain to do an involuntary boggle and pay attention. This is exploited by brands such as FCUK. And every time you use a swear word, you are, in effect, landing an emotional punch on the person who hears it." quoted from Times Online

so, if you come into contact with a human verbally at a regular basis, which all of us human do (or at least should), then swearing is a really bad habit. u might find it ok for yourself, like I did (sadly), but it's not gonna be pleasant to others' ears. swearing will only further deteriorate myself, socially. Ultimately I'm doing this for myself cos I don't like that guy swearing at me, so I'm asking that guy in the mirror to change his way. x)

p/s: if this turned out to be a good post then I'm sorry if I have mislead you earlier, but if I did then you won't probably be reading this. irony? x)

back on the map...

2009-11-16T15:49:00.005+08:00

it has been a good 3 months since my last post. some thought i've already buried this blog. others questioned the 'private'-ness of the blog. speculating that maybe i've gone a lil too emo and might not want to share anymore through the blog haha the truth is i was just looking for some changes. i got bored.

for the last month, i've been stealing minutes to hours trying to figure a new layout for the blog. the last milk boy was ok. but like i said, i was bored. and furthermore, i like the editing work. this layout still need a lil touch up. as you can see, on each side, it's pretty empty. i need to get back all the links i used to have. as while i was not posting anything, i was not reading any either :(

i got nothing much to say this morning. i'll probably throw an article or two but that's it. i need to get back to posting mode first before i can start rambling away again.

recently i found myself highly unable to mutitask. ok, maybe, i wasn't really able to multitask in the first place. but at least everyone have the ability to do two or more simple things in one time. i found this out the hard way.

almost every time when i'm playing fifa 10 or modern warfare 2, i will be engulfed into a state of 'if it's not urgent, don't bother me'. it seemed to me that this is the adaptive mechanism (or maybe maladaptive, whatever) that i've developed. because, every time during this period if i start processing something else in my mind, i will lose focus and probably concede a goal or got shot from behind. it can be from as simple as telling an ass the time to as complicated as trying to eavesdrop on my flatmate conversation. so i tend to ignore social contact during this period. and some might testify to how i am separated from this world during those hours.

but it's not my point to say that you shouldn't disturb me when i'm playing (but it's good if you acknowledge this xp ), it's just that i wanted to share this article haha If you can’t do it in your sleep, it is taking up cognitive energy

i've been keeping this for a while so it's a bit old. i just thought it's pretty applicable to some of us, 'hardworking students' *chuckles*

cure for cancer might just be this

2009-08-10T07:47:00.008+08:00

Never thought that I'd still be writing here, did you? well, I'm kinda close to that thought too.

Not much of an update, but at least it's something.

Anyway, it's sunday and I only have 2 more days before my first paper. First for this session at least. It's not like I haven't done it before. Nonetheless, I thought I'd take a day off from extreme panicking and revising. And the day hadn't been anything less.

Fell asleep (amazingly) around 11 and woke up at 4, just in time to go back to sleep at 4.20. Around 8, I lazily surf the Internet (or some might believe the future's, or in this case, present's, dajjal) on my double-mattress bed (thanks to Afiq for the mattress). Missed breakfast. Well, not really missed, but more to delayed till lunch, if you know what I mean *wink*

Speaking of which, I think an extra few inches might have been added around my center of gravity. Probably because the last time I had been sweating here was when I was late, running, trying to catch a jemaah for zuhr. Even that had barely any effect on my sweat glands and mind you, I usually sweat like a squeezed sponge. Summer's day you asked? Rainy day in Malaysia is probably warmer than a summer's noon here hahah

Momentum of interest in cooking a proper meal for myself has been depleting exponentially since I came here. Proper meal to my standard would mean cooking an actual sauce for the pasta rather than, what I have been doing lately, tossing a few chopped sausages over a heated pre-made ones. It is fine with me, though some might shriek over the amount of carbs and fat, not to mention the cholesterol, such meal has. A good investment for my later days, if I want to die unexpectedly (to some extent of the meaning for the word 'unexpected') of a heart attack.

Before I could grab a bite after zuhr, I bump into one of my basketball acquaintance (I call him acquaintance because I barely know him and it makes my sentence sounded more sophisticated like how the word sophisticated does xp ). A few exchanges of small talk. Later, I went straight to my point, since I saw his sports bag next to him, and voila! Basketball at 2. How can I turn down such an opportunity? (rhetorical) So, had an ok time during the session. A week off from physical activity can really damage your stamina, or maybe my stamina je.

Went back after grocery shopping, had a few bites and as Uncle Kraker had sung it, "drift away..." or in a much more simple reference, tidoq.

Later, went for one of the show in the Edinburgh Fringe Festival. I was only told it is a comedy show and Stuart & Barry on sunday (quote from Suz's msg). I figured no one else has much info on it unless they've been to one. Since I had no idea of what it is all about, I don't have much expectation for the show. So, they almost literally had to do nothing to impress me. I wouldn't say it's wicked (pun intended *trying very hard pretending to laugh* kalo korg x paham pon gelak je), but I like magic, comedy and live show. Maybe not so much on the comedy this time but I thoroughly enjoyed it.

Barry & Stuart: Powered by the Demons

Sure there are better things to write, but I'm just too lazy to find any good things to share this time. After 2 months, I think I need to warm up first.

Having that thought in mind, I found this might be interesting to share this time.

People 'get happier as they age'

Most people get happier as they grow older, studies on people aged up to their mid-90s suggest.

Despite worries about ill health, income, changes in social status and bereavements, later life tends to be a golden age, according to psychologists.

They found older adults generally make the best of the time they have left and have learned to avoid situations that make them feel sad or stressed.

The young should do the same, they told the American Psychological Association.

Ageing society

The UK is an ageing nation - in less than 25 years, one in four people in the UK will be over 65 and the number of over-85s will have doubled.

And it is expected there will be 30,000 people aged over 100 by the year 2030.

“ For many people, older age and later life is often looked upon with dread and worry ”
Andrew Harrop Head of public policy at Age Concern and Help the Aged

According to University of California psychologist Dr Susan Turk Charles, this should make the UK a happier society.

By reviewing the available studies on emotions and ageing she found that mental wellbeing generally improved with age, except for people with dementia-related ill health.

Work carried out by Dr Laura Carstensen, a psychology professor at Stanford University, suggested why this might be the case.

Dr Carstensen asked volunteers ranging in age from 18 to mid-90s to take part in various experiments and keep diaries of their emotional state.

She found the older people were far less likely than the younger to experience persistent negative moods and were more resilient to hearing personal criticism.

They were also much better at controlling and balancing their emotions - a skill that appeared to improve the older they became.

TIPS FOR A HAPPY OLD AGE

Envisage ways to thoroughly enjoy the years ahead and imagine living to a healthy and happy 100

Design your life and daily routines to reinforce this goal

Don't put all your "social" eggs in one basket - invest time outside of your family and career too

Dr Charles explained: "Based on work by Carstensen and her colleagues, we know that older people are increasingly aware that the time they have left in life is growing shorter.

"They want to make the best of it so they avoid engaging in situations that will make them unhappy.

"They have also had more time to learn and understand the intentions of others which helps them to avoid these stressful situations."

Dr Carstensen said the young would do well to start preparing for their old age now.

This includes adopting a healthy daily routine and ensuring some social investment is spent outside of the workplace and family home.

Andrew Harrop, head of public policy at Age Concern and Help the Aged, said the findings were encouraging.

"For many people, older age and later life is often looked upon with dread and worry.

"Far too many younger people assume that getting older is a process that will inevitably mean sickness, frailty and lack of mobility and greater dependence. However, this is far from the truth in very many cases.

"Many older people lead active, healthy lives enriched by experience and learning.

"This positive advantage can be brought to bear across so many aspects of daily life which - in turn - hugely benefits our ageing society.

"It's vital that there is growing acceptance that just because someone is getting older, it doesn't mean they no longer have a significant contribution to make.

"This study is one of many which shows that later life can be a enormously positive experience."

Story from BBC NEWS
Published: 2009/08/07 23:06:22 GMT
© BBC MMIX

It's surprising, isn't it? (expect sarcasm) but really, why aren't the young and healthy the happiest? (expect more sarcasm)

Experience can be translated into knowledge, and at their age, community expect them to remember, and even sometimes remind them of, death. So, I guess those are the answers. Knowledge and remembering death. This reminds me of something, aren't we supposed to remind ourselves of death as well? (totally rhetorical, don't bother)

So before I end this more and more excruciating post as you scroll down the page, I shall leave a quote just to make sure something is beneficial. Just in case none of the above make sense since my words can, oftentimes, be very confusing.

"Asceticism is not that you should not own anything, but that nothing should own you."

-Ali ibn Abu Talib r.a.-

After minutes of typing, I realized that the things I've been saying about death can be summed up into a line. Work as if you got a thousand years and pray as if today is your last (translation cannot be anymore direct than this)... bummer -_-'

can't we just grow money on trees?

2009-06-20T22:11:00.003+08:00

It’s almost 3 weeks since i left edin for summer break. But the latest update i believe goes back way beyond that 3 weeks. For some, it’s quite obvious why. For those who are not so sure why, let me help you guys, malas! Haha

I guess there’s nothing much to update on now either. Mostly because i have done nothing much except for (apart from the obvious makan, tido) basketball and revision. And i kinda prefer actual social contact in order to share these things. Kalo semua citer kat sini, what’s left when we meet up? x)

But it’s not really fair for those who are too far away (and actually care). It’s not really my forte, maintaining long distance relationship. It’s really hard to make things work. i barely make the short distance ones alive, kalo kawan2 yang jauh ni lagi la... -_-'

I’m surprised when i found tv to be quite a bore lately and this coming from a couch potato ‘tegar’ nih. Maybe because I don’t have the entertainment channels subscribed cam Starworld etc. but one thing has not change yet though, and let me quote my mak,’hai, dah besar gajah pon tengok kartun jugak?’ i guess I haven’t outgrown that part of me yet x)

I will probably be available until the end of next month. So kalo ade stj 0105 yang bace benda nih, kalo nak lepak, ajak la ye x) (i can’t be sure if anyone from stj reads this hmm...)

Anyway, that’s all i can update for the moment. Yes, life have been a bliss, maybe not to the fullest possible meaning of bliss but i certainly am happy to be around my family and back home.

Ouh, was digging some old stuff and found this in one of the folders. It was given by a very good friend of mine.

Have you felt happier when communicating with a bubbly individual as opposed to one with a straight face? Research shows that when people are in a certain mood, this mood is often communicated to people around us. This phenomenon is known as emotional contagion.Or as Wiki defines it:
Emotional contagion is the tendency to express and feel emotion that are similar to and influenced by those of others. One view of the underlying mechanism is that it represents a tendency to automatically mimic and synchronize facial expressions, vocalizations, postures, and movements with those of another person and, consequently, to converge emotionally (Hatfield, Cacioppo, & Rapson, 1994). A broader definition of the phenomenon was suggested by Sigal G. Barsade- "a process in which a person or group influences the emotions or behavior of another person or group through the conscious or unconscious induction of emotion states and behavioral attitudes"

So remember...smiles can be contagious, but so can tears..(of course i am not asking you to mask your emotions..but do consider how you can affect others..but more importantly how you: "miss sunshinse/mr sunshine" can make a difference!"

My normal face, the face you have when you are just walking around or doing work at the library or just minding your own business, was often taken as a depressed man’s face (i kinda think it still is). It took me quite some time to come to terms with this ‘fact’. most of it because i was concentrating on denying the accusation of me being depressed, which i think kinda helped in making me actually depressed.

My close friends often ask me whether i’m depressed or not. Lucky for them, i have a quite high threshold for annoying friend. and this is a friendly reminder for all friends out there, kalo member tu dah bagi jawapan yang sama 3 kali, paham2 je la ye. Kang tak pasal2 je selipar jepun tu melekat kat pipi xp (i’m sure we all know you ask because you care)

Although this went on for quite some time, i failed to learn anything from it (sampai dapat email ni la). Slow sket mase nih kot. Anyway, i eventually agreed with the fact. Ye la, kalo jumpe org ke, or even tengok muke kat sendiri kat cermin (time gosok gigi je haha) kalo muke cam tempoyak busuk je, in an instant mood leh dirosakkan. So rajin2 la senyum ye. I forced myself to smile whenever i can. I believe that if the body agrees, than the mind will follow x)

something for the rage...

2009-05-05T15:12:00.002+08:00

to obtain a 'birds eye' is to turn a blizzard to a breeze...
nice to know you - incubus

early morning self-contradiction?

I've been up since half 3 this morning. well, apart from the obvious, primarily because I wanted to watch game 1. yeah, the time difference sucks. but, it was worth the stay up. it was a great game, at least for a rockets' fan. although I was quite disappointed that kobe was, sort of, under the weather. good news for rockets though, they took the home court advantage and yao is alright despite the scare.

anyway, watched house. finally, those two are getting on with it, if that makes sense to any of you. on another note, I felt shitty through the middle part of the show. I don't know if it was just due to the stay up or I actually felt sorry for house (did I just feel empathy?) either way, it doesn't really matter. I feel a lot better now.

prejudice. was a popular word around people I hang out with for the last few weeks. it's all about judging people from looks and having preconceived ideas about them. who doesn't judge these days? I mean I don't think that we should stop preaching 'don't judge a book by a cover' or anything. it's just that, at one point, we just couldn't help it, at least for those who tried.

for some reason, I like language. the incongruity here being me not much of a reader and not very good at communicating (I 'was' an antisocial, you do the math). it's just like those people who can really appreciate art but just can't actually produce one. the other day I stumbled upon this video on youtube. a lady, she did 21 different accents in English. I thought that was brilliant. I mean, it's not really that easy to fake an accent. the good ones always made it look easy for us to be enthusiastic about it. I've tried and I've failed. and that was only in bahasa. I guessed I might just appreciate it for now and maybe eventually, with enough effort, I might just be able to do the same. ouh btw, just because you don't like something, you shouldn't be patronizing it. I learned this the hard way, or more appropriately, the 'difficult' way :p (this is so lame) cuz some might just say,'it's still english, so what's so brilliant about it?'

system of a down, can really help bring out that rage for the extra drive towards the upcoming finals for those who have a lot of rage at their disposal x)

corgito ergo sum
I think, therefore I am
Rene Descartes 1641

back to more pharmacology and therapeutics -_-'

sunny day...

2009-04-30T12:30:00.002+08:00

sunny day,
sweeping the clouds away,
on my way to where the air is sweet...♪♫♪

have been humming to the remixed version of this tune for a few days now. when you can't get it out of your head, you just can't, isn't it? any guess on the song? x)

anyway, I've been up since 1 am. it's only possible because I fell asleep at 10. woke up and knew that I won't be able to go to asleep again. so, if you can't sleep, might as well be productive, right?

Are you a bucket-filler or a dipper?

You have heard of the cup that overflowed. This is a story of a bucket that is like the cup, only larger, it is an invisible bucket. Everyone has one. It determines how we feel about ourselves, about others, and how we get along with people. Have you ever experienced a series of very favourable things which made you want to be good to people for a week? At that time, your bucket was full.

A bucket can be filled by a lot of things that happen. When a person speaks to you, recognizing you as a human being, your bucket is filled a little. Even more, if he calls you by name, especially if it is the name you like to be called. If he compliments you on your dress or on a job well done, the level in your bucket goes up still higher. There must be a million ways to raise the level in another’s bucket. Writing a friendly letter, remembering something that is special to him, knowing the names of his children, expressing sympathy for his loss, giving him a hand when his work is heavy, taking time for conversation, or, perhaps more important, listening to him.

When one’s bucket is full of this emotional support, one can express warmth and friendliness to people. But, remember, this is a theory about a bucket and a dipper. Other people have dippers and they can get their dippers in your bucket. This, too, can be done in a million ways.

Let say I am at a dinner and inadvertently upset a glass of thick, sticky chocolate milk that spills over the table cloth, on a lady’s skirt, down onto the carpet. I am embarrassed. “Bright Eyes” across the table says, “You upset that glass of chocolate milk.” I made a mistake, I know I did, and then he told me about it! He got his dipper in my bucket! Think of the times a person makes a mistake, feels terrible about it, only to have someone tell him about the known mistake (”Red pencil” mentality!)

Buckets are filled and buckets are emptied? Emptied many times because people don’t really think about what they are doing. When a person’s bucket is emptied, he is very different than when it is full. You say to a person whose bucket is empty, “That is a pretty tie you have,” and he may reply in a very irritated, defensive manner.

Although there is a limit to such an analogy, there are people who seem to have holes in their buckets. When a person has a hole in his bucket, he irritates lots of people by trying to get his dipper in their buckets. This is when he really needs somebody to pour it in his bucket because he keeps losing.

The story of our lives is the interplay of the bucket and the dipper. Everyone has both. The unyielding secret of the bucket and the dipper is that when you fill another’s bucket it does not take anything out of your own bucket. The level in our own bucket gets higher when we fill another’s, and, on the other hand, when we dip into another’s bucket we do not fill our own … we lose a little.

For a variety of reasons, people hesitate filling the bucket of another and consequently do not experience the fun, joy, happiness, fulfilment, and satisfaction connected with making another person happy. Some reasons for this hesitancy are that people think it sounds “fakey,” or the other person will be suspicious of the motive, or it is “brown-nosing.” Therefore, let us put aside our dipper and resolve to touch someone’s life in order to fill their bucket.

I thought that this worth the sharing. rather an old one, and I was surprised that I didn't put this here earlier, like two years earlier.

as obvious as this might have been to some, I'm not an idealist. I don't really believe in hiding behind flowery speech just to make someone feel better about a thing. if someone has a smelly body odour or he just sucks at football, I can only think of two options. one, tell him the whole truth, if required, or two, just shut up. the latter is always better. if there is one thing that I can say that I agree with horoscope would be sagittarians, like me, are oblivious to our own blunt (insensitive) speech. so most girls found me insensitive and I'm not denying it either. I'm really not the smooth talking type. and this got nothing to do with me stuttering every time I start speaking in english.

one thing that I think I know about human interaction is that it is not as easy as following methods off a self help book or as copying what people did in the past. over time, a lot of things have changed. language, culture, mentality, attitude, just to name a few. what we are supposed to do, I think, is taking baby steps. change is difficult, no doubt. so take your time, but just bare in mind that as days pass, death closes itself. and I'm starting to be pointless again *sigh*

ciao!

p/s: I'm still amazed by how much you can lose along your head and the keyboard

module structure...

2009-04-21T00:53:00.002+08:00

Knowledge of basic science is essential for understanding the underlying causes of disorders and help to identify sites for therapy.

Golongan ini adalah Pencari.
Selalu menyelesaikan sesuatu yang tersembunyi,dan mereka sukar untuk menerima sesuatu perkara dengan mudah.
Perasaan mereka tidak mempengaruhi keputusan mereka.
Mereka suka mempersoalkan apa yang ada disekeliling mereka tetapi mereka tidak suka dipersoalkan.
Mereka kerap dikenali sebagai ahli falsafah dan sangat berpengetahuan dan kadangkala bersendirian.
Mereka gemarkan perkara yang berteknikal dan berkebolehan untuk menjadi penyelidik yang baik dalam menyelesaikan sesuatu perkara.
Mereka sangat suka berahsia.
Golongan ini hidup dalam dunia mereka tersendiri dan mereka perlu belajar untuk menerima kenyataan dunia sebenar.(!)

and can't imagine that coming from a facebook quiz. menarik jugak la ye?

...back to the bat cave!

question...

2009-04-20T06:39:00.005+08:00

I guess even if I’m not writing anything on the blog, I should at least tell the funny people who open this blog why I don’t. I’m just kidding, you aren’t funny. I’m sure you care about me and interested in my updates (see, do you get why I say it’s funny? xp ) Since I found out that Microsoft word has a function for blog post, I always have been writing my post with it first and then transfer it to the blog. Most of the time, ‘the draft’ got either ‘too good’ or ‘too bad’ and I will just keep it in my folder. Of course, too good doesn’t always mean too good and too bad always means too bad.

The other day I wrote something about irony. I came across hypocrisy and etc. I think that it’s not really an irony if a pious man says it’s ok to lie as long as the end justifies the mean and a few other kind of that stuff. In the end, I thought the post was pointless and sounded more like a hate mail. So, I kept it to myself. Before this I wrote something about how I hate people who can’t judge honesty and rudeness and the difference between them, that made me look like a hypocrite. So I buried it.

This time, I just want some perspectives or maybe opinions, if anyone reads this.

Stating the obvious. Should or should not we do it? I mean, put aside all the attempts to joke or ridicule other people, is it really necessary? Why? If someone made a good suggestion, should I be feeding his ego right on the spot knowing that there might be no other chances for me to kiss his ass again? Or, if someone made an obvious mistake and is utterly oblivious about it, should I just give him the elbow so that I don’t embarrass him in front of the whole class if instead I point at the chilli he got, stuck on his teeth?

I know that it is literally a suicide for a low self-esteem guy like me to put my blog on the chopping block like this, but I have more to gain than I have to lose. So, what the heck, right? good luck to me. Worse come to worse, I'll just kill the blog and worry less about censoring, as if those have been much of a problem before.

And of course, if the question is wrong or you think i'm talking crap (because most of the time I think I am), please, do show me I'm stupid.

ouh one more reason why I don't write hear often, I suck at it.

holidays start now...

2009-03-29T23:15:00.004+08:00

I watched Knowing for the second time since yesterday. I wasn't impressed with the quality of the last copy i watched, and 'unfortunately' I found a better copy on the net. I decided to watch it to pick up any details that i might miss the 1st time went through it.

the movie particularly earned my interest the first time I saw it's trailer. Often when i almost forgot about it another review or comment came up, again renewing the curiosity. Finally watched it and had fun actually. I may have oversimplified the movie when friends asked me about it. Probably because I assume they weren't very interested about it, especially when Nicolas Cage is in it. To tell you the truth, the movie had more to tell about than just the average performance by Nicolas Cage or the ridiculous presentation of what might be the truth.

For those who might not have watched the movie, it's like one of those stories where prophecies, revelation or premonition in some way came true. I can recall one sci-fi series that I actually watch and kind of like, First Wave, if any of you ever heard of it. Considering the amount of ridicule I throw upon fantasy movies like harry potter or lord of the ring, I’m quite the hypocrite in some way. Of course I didn't say it out loud every time the topics came up in chats.

i like the fact, or maybe idea, of how finally some people starting to sink in to the idea of one day, this world will end in whatever way it might. I also like the fact that some are starting to agree that there will be nothing that can stop the world from ending when ever that will be. when i was in primary 5 or 6, i can't be really sure about it, my BM teacher asked us one question,"Kalaulah US ke, Russia ke, sape2 je la, tiba2 tembak 10 atau 100 bom nuklear kat semua tempat kat dunia ni, termasuklah negara dorang sendiri, rase2nye kiamat tak?" to be honest, now that I’ve actually thought about it, was he crazy or something? we were barely 12 and he expected us to actually ponder upon it? Silly. 100 nuclear bombs, of course we all said that it'll definitely be the end of the world.

but that was it, my earliest memory of me starting to rationalise every single fact that came before me. i didn't ask a lot of question back then because most of my answers were taught to me and also because i was too shy back then, too shy for my own good ha-ha. I have to thank my teacher because since then, i found meaning in rules, limitations, and instructions. i started to realise that there are greater causes and reason behind every one of those.

It sounded so pleasant when i put it that way. Life, it's not that easy. Some things, they get worse before they get better, some just stay the way they are, and some even took the less wanted route. You see, knowing is one thing, doing is another thing. I guess that's why most religion has this concept of prophet. Human can't be good just by knowing what they are supposed to do and not to do.

I’m going to stop here, this is taking too long and I don't reckon the next few paragraph will bring any more benefit than the previous ones, if they by any chance brought any. There are a lot of holes in these paragraphs but I hope who ever reads this can fill them by themselves.

A final note, as a Muslim, it is not really our concern when or how this world is going to end. It’s the 'after party' that should really be thought about.

”The feet of a servant will not move on the Day of Resurrection until he has been questioned about (four things :) his life - how he spent it; his knowledge - how he acted upon it; his wealth - where he earned it and how he spent it; and his body - how he used it.” (Narrated by Tirmidhi)

wallahu'alam

x)

2009-03-08T23:04:00.005+08:00

i laughed at myself seeing how long has this blog been deserted. a good one whole month, taking the 28 days February into account. but if u have nothing good to say, u might as well shut up right? hehe

the past month has been hectic. life's been a roller coaster as it has always been. i'm not complaining. i mean, what's life if there are no problems to solve and tests to pass, right? x)

i finally got to spare some time to read some of the blogs that i haven't been reading for quite sometime. usually i only read their title and if i think it was worthy enough for me to read, then maybe i will. blogs by ustaz-s, i try to make it usual. considering the amount of tazkirah i have every day, none, i find it quite helpful. chicken soup for the soul bak kate omputih hehe

i still feel that i'm around the lowest point of my life (haha pathetic kan?). struggling with the massive amount of info i have to cover during lectures, some other few crisis, personal i must add, and some set backs but even so, im grateful to at least still be alive x)

i found this on nanue's. got me gigling a bit. always like the study of human. so i must say that i always find these personality tests intriguing haha

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

'but they are not always true' as some sceptics may argue. but then again, if it makes u smile, then why not? xp skali sekala xpe kot?

one of the things i found interesting about human is, a study suggested that if u initially pretend to like someone, eventually u will like them for real. is this true? well give it a go. coz u got nothing to lose, right? n if it works, you'll have yourself a new friend. i already know the result of that experiment x)

maybe, i've infected myself with this 'penyakit hebatnye dan sibuknye'. nauzubillah.

anyway, one message particualr for meor, if you're reading this, bro, teman kantoi lg. 'environment-induced panic'. igt peristiwa pre-czech? i've again succumbed to such madness. disebabkan oleh kesilapan bodoh itu, teman berada dalam krisis yg agak kurang menyenangkan hehe. macam mane teman boleh bodoh benor? entah le. sampai yg dah kali ke brape pon tak pasti dah. teman harap kome idak la ye? hehe

What others see from your shoes (mine's sport shoes)

You're very young at heart. You regard freedom highly and don't like to be controlled by a set of rules. You don't like conflict, will compromise wherever possible, and are hardworking people. Occasionally you can become vulnerable when having to face problems, especially emotional ones.

haha random giler

anyway, i better shut up now. i'm nearing that fine line between benefit and unnecessary. last few words (tak cukup2 jugak). this is gonna make me look a bit shallow, quoting from american idol, anyways:

'success comes from two things, preparation and chance'

dan bagi sesiape yg memerlukan (saye la tu xp). dari Saifulislam.Com

Sesungguhnya Kami telah menciptakan manusia dalam bentuk yang sebaik-baiknya. [At-Tin: 4]

p/s: post ini sgt berterabur -_-'

and it came to pass...

2009-02-07T00:31:00.004+08:00

don't you just hate when you finally make time to do something and you somehow can't do it? i was sitting on my desk when i was about to blog about something and suddenly i just lost it. instead, i ended up buying cheese balls, and i think i twisted my ankle a bit while running back to my room. it is just too cold for a guy in flip-flops to stay out.

anyway, yeah. life's like that i guess. you can plan all you want, but in the end of the day, life might just don't care about your plan anyway. you plan to stay single till 35 so that you can have enough time for yourself, who knows that if you will even make it till 25?

enough with the boring talk. i lost my bicycle last week. i mentioned this because it kind of took a big portion of my time and energy just to get around. so things that are on the lower bit of my to-do-list (like blogging xp) were unfairly treated. well of course the bicycle is not the only reason i didn't have much time. unsurprisingly, my timetable is. not to blame everything on my timetable though, i actually have the whole monday free for next week (and am lovin' it! xp) so i can understand if some already lost interest in visiting this page, or maybe even annoyed at some point? hehe

i asked meor about one of the things he posted on his blog. i lost the stuff so i had to google it again, but thanks to him that i know about it in the first place. it's about one of the famous sufi's saying. the four gates of speech. it's difficult, ain't it? even if you just want to speak, you have to go through four gates. but things back then aren't just popular because they are catchy and flashy, they were indeed useful and in fact, some still are, like this one. appreciate it and the benefit might be ours.

i had an interview today. im tasked to interview an 80 years young lady. it went quite well, very well actually. have a great partner, and a friendly lady to work with. and talking about working with a lady, i met another a lady, my GP, whom was born in Johor and her siblings in KL and Penang. may be far away from malaysia, somehow it feels so near x) while Malaysia is still is the subject, yesterday when i had my dinner at the mosque kitchen, the chap asked me where i am from, when i said malaysia, the other guy uttered, "Malaysia truly asia!" haha i wonder how much money the government spent just to get a guy like him remember that tag line x)

i heard about the fuss over in Perak. i can't understand why the people are very upset. i don't understand why is there a need to do such thing, i mean the party-hopping stuff. am not a very knowledgeable in this kind of stuff but i can see the abvious points. i'll reserve my judgment untill i can really make any good ones.

my last post has brought a few unwanted reaction, at least on my part. so i thought i might just make my point clearer next time. my apologies.

too much for a post i think... -_-

wan, out~

sakit...

2009-01-13T00:51:00.003+08:00

yesterday i wanted to post pics but my body was too sore from basketball. even my mind was 'sore' after watching the game *sigh*

so today i thought i'd surf around a bit after a tiring errand-running day and then come here and post d pics. well guess what? d bloody israel is using chemical weapon now. how the heck can the whole world let this happen in the first place, i have no idea.

a few days ago, something took me by surprise. someone who is relatively 'close' to me manifest his thought, he supports israel. trust me, i was beyond shock to find that there are actually people who think that what israel did and is doing now are right. ye la, selalu nye lepak ngan org melayu je, semua nak tolong org palestin. jarang jumpe org yg xnak tolong. skali bile dah pecah 'bubble' tu, baru tau.

the manifestation itself got me challenging my stand. when you are not really having a strong stance, a small gust can really blow. i asked myself. am i really on the right side? am i doing this just because everyone around me is doing so? are they doing the right things? am i blindly supporting them because they are muslims? or i just don't know what i'm doing?

this happened to me. why? because i didnt know much. i thought i knew everything i need to know. i was wrong.

ape2 pon, jgn la ikut dan buat saje. ilmu penting. ciao~

p/s: jgn sempitkan minda. byk aplikasi benda nih. contohnya, politik, sosial dan ekonomi x)

last day...

2009-01-11T17:11:00.008+08:00

today's d last day of the long holidays. vincent asked me whether i'm excited for my lectures, which are starting tomorrow, 'not really', looking at the way my timetable is and the work i need to do this semester, the answer was kinda fair. but when god gives u lemon, u make lemonade right? haha

anyway, is good to finally get up-to-date with friends. at least with those who have blog. did some reading, and malaysia aint doing that bad too, according to utusan that is.

another pic bonanza for me familia.

from dublin to london

sebelum berlepas ke manchester dr dublinkapal terbang yg berpusing2 lantas menyebabkan azri terlepas bas, kesian..

berjumpa dgn konvoi yg dah nak balik
nain, apen n bibeq

malam yg amat3 sejuk di manchester

warga kembara yg riang haha

esoknye, singgah sebentar di rumah aizat

destinasi seterusnye
u know why d pic got blurred xp
trafford center yg x ubah macam mid valley kite

tiba di leeds

pride of leeds uni, d parkinson building

di sambut mesra oleh fer (kanan skali) dan rakan2

bergambar sekejap dkt depan parkinson building

bangunan uni dorg, sebahagian drpdnye

benda2 pelik kat leeds, batu2 yg disusun secara pelik kat atas rumput

sekitar uni

ni city hall rasenye

malam terakhir, gi demo jap
free, free palestine!

the capital, london

started off with the marble arch

the eye of london

tangkak gamba je, dok naek pong

big ben

ramai sungguh org

since i had the longest stay in london, the pic list is as long as well. so sambung laen kali je la. den nak buek kojo jap. salam ukhwah xp

ireland

2009-01-10T20:03:00.000+08:00

sehari berlalu lagi, jadi kali nak post gambar2 mase kat ireland aritu. buat tatapan keluarga di tanah air x)

sekitar dublin...

tuan rumah 218, muadz x)

makan tengah hari pertama di dublin fitri dan huzaifah

mase jalan2 kat bandar ngan peserta puisi yg lain

ukiran pasir kat tengah2 bandar, menarik

rakan2 kembara (faris, jepah, azhar, hisham, aslam, iqtidar)

gamba2 kat puisi

sori xde gamba mase aktiviti, malas nak bawak kamera

cebisan2 dublin castle

city hall

dublin mosque

ni je kot yg boleh letak sini
ciao
;)

New World Order...

2009-01-07T08:13:00.004+08:00

saje je nak buat gempak sket ngan letak tajuk tu, jadi ke tidak gempaknye, xtau la..

lebih kurang 24 jam yg lalu, diri ini menjejakkan kaki ke rumah yg dah xtau yg ke brape ni (ampang tetap yg pertama!). penat, sejujurnye, xde la sgt. ini semua sebab perjalanan dengan kereta api yang jauh lagi selesa dari yg disangkakan. ye la, bile teringatkan perkhidmatan ktm kat malaysia dulu, xde la ape sangat yang boleh dibanggakan. tapi bile semalam naik keretapi national express east coast (igt name penuh tuh) terkejut beruk gak la, namun emosi ini x dizahirkan, bile tgk selesa yg amat gerabak die. siap ade soket elektrik lg ngan wifi skali (sori la kalo ktm ade benda nih, bkan nak ngutuk ktm, cume ter-excited je) so tersenyum sorg la dlm keretapi tu smlm (sebab tengok lawak russell peters, bkan sebab dah mereng)

pastu bile dah sampai waverly, hehe, naik teksi je la balik umah. so memang x penat pon, bak kate omputih, 'did not break a sweat'. masuk bilik, nasib baik bilik ditinggalkan dalam keadaan yg memuaskan, xde la tensi sangat bile masuk bilik tu. jadi selepas menyiapkan diri untuk tidur, ape lagi? tido' r

nak meringkaskan kembara musim sejuk yang 2 minggu nih, memang seronok la. bukan nak cakap yang perjalanan tu xde masalah langsung, tp sebab ade masalah la die jd seronok. kalo lancar je x sedap gak. mesti la nak dramatik sket hehe. banyak benda yg dpt diambil ibrah (baru belajar perkataan ni aritu) mase ni la kite leh kenal sape kawan, sape lawan (lawan tu xde la, saje nak kasi sedap sket ayat tu xp) jadi pok cik dan mok cik kek umoh tu, toksah ghisau la. sayo dok peghabih duit ghakyat ni tok la abih gitu jo, banyak yang sayo dapek. insyaAllah manfaatla ape yang dapat aritu untuk diri dan semua org, amin.

tengah x sabar nak amik keretapi ke edinburgh kat newcastle

rakan kembara yg dihargai, sepasang kaki x)

nak tido, selamat malam x)

long time no see..

2008-12-19T01:51:00.003+08:00

i already felt like stopping doing this...

yep, exams over, holidays starting.

i'll be heading for dublin for a couple of days, not just for sightseeing, im going there for puisi. i mentioned this because, not only people i told about it, even im starting to think that this is just another holiday trip.. well a newsletter came a few days ago, it reminded me of, what we all need to do everyday, set my intention right. thankfully the reminder came not too late, so sempat la hamba nak 're-set' niat

so i'll probably going to be post-less for the next 2 or 3 weeks, depending on how long i want to have the break after the holiday. so dont bother checking this blog after that period of time. and i will will myself to be super-hardworking (relatively speaking from where my lazy-ness currently is now). hmmm... a good new year resolution isn't it? haha

ouh btw, this is the bike i bought about a month ago

ilalliqa' (that's 'till we meet again' in arab, tho i dun find d relevance in this post, i've just learned that word hehe)

sunshine through my window...

2008-11-13T21:48:00.002+08:00

..that's what i hoped.

life's like a poem, u can never be sure of what the poet means until u finally meet him/her. but not all poem are complicated, some are clear and simple. put aside all the mumbo-jumbo of the language style, they all say one thing.

haha another junk one shouldnt read *sigh*

this is a lil quickie, i wanted to tell those who read my blog. i wont be updating my blog for at least the next few weeks. i appreciate those who give a hoot about my blog and thus i wudnt want them to open my blog and be frustrated later on

on another note. my mak n nenda are leaving for tanah suci next thursday. He has finally called upon them. and i ask of you to spare a few words of prayer for them. marilah berdoa, moga2 dapatlah mereka haji yang mabrur. amin

Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a. katanya, Rasulullah s.a.w. telah ditanya, “Amalan manakah yang lebih utama ? Baginda menjawab: “Beriman kepada Allah dan juga kepada Rasulnya”. Kemudian baginda ditanya lagi, “Selepas itu apa lagi ? Baginda berkata, “Berjihad di jalan yang diredhai Allah”. Kemudian apa lagi ? Baginda menjawab, “Mengerjakan ibadat haji yang diterima oleh Allah (haji mabrur).

(al-Bukhari dan Muslim)

sunday morning, rain is falling...

2008-11-09T16:11:00.004+08:00

bismillah

the rain didn't actually fall tho x)

came back from teviot's this morning. had a lil usrah last night. the weather is pretty nice actually. the sun is shining just fine. a lil cold of course went through mr ludwig's note (firdaus' fav lecturer, maybe cuz of ludwig's german accent i think xp ) but that was it actually. just trying to use the morning boost, since Allah sent His angels every morning, might as well use it x)

then breakfast was made. the usual. wedges hehe u can't get enough of the things u like kan? hehe

wedges, garlic baguette, n ssssalsa x)

then comes the video surfing and of course blogging. went to the usual place and checked a few videos from yesterday matches

if it's football, i suggest that you go here
Footy films. the videos are kept up to date. and the quality are also very fair if u compare to videos in youtube
and for The Blues royalty, check the blog. tho the highlights often come in late, but the goals are often a few hours after.

one other place i always visit is BballVideos.com. it has a massive rips of everyday matches, higlights, top 10s and some other stuff. too bad that the matches are often uploaded to megaupload and i dun have any megaupload account *sigh*

and specifically this morning i watched obama's acceptance speech. a lil late but since meor said something about i checked it out anyway. and knowing meor, i know i wont be disappointed. and indeed i wasn't. the speech was quite inspiring to be honest. tho i'm always a lil bit sceptic when it comes to something that is 'too good to be true'. a realist, one wud expect kan? x)

here's d vid on youtube.

part 1

part 2

last part

let's just pray for the best :)

me (english) has rotten...

2008-11-09T02:18:00.003+08:00

bismillah

finally, i have the will to write something. this week has been very demanding. energy, time and of course, money. semester exams is just around a month time *sigh*

anyway, enuf complaining. here's a few things, i'd like to share x)

ouh, i'm not sharing the keropok tho xp

for those who like pringles, like me, being told that it is haram has probably occured at least once in our life. aqtar told me,'Pringles is NOT haram' at least not all of them! so sape2 yg main ckp je tu, get your facts right. i was surprised when i was told as such, pringles is haram, the first time. but it wasn't that convincing tho, most of them just said 'pringles xde tande halal pon' sheesh! grow up la. xkan nak tunggu jakim letak tande halal kat smua packaging baru bleh makan.
here's my reference: 1 2
tp kalau was2 sgt tu, elok elakkan je la..

last time i said that arsenal has kinda fallen off the radar a bit, my radar. well, last game kinda changed that i guess. good for them tho. the game was very enjoyable, especially to see man u go down hahaha a few days ago i read an interview article on kolo toure in the muslim news. it was said that toure and two others, bakary sagna and abou diaby are muslims. on the other hand, i also found out that arsenal made a deal with Israeli Tourism Ministry. in return of the ministry's sponsorship, arsenal will promote israel as a tourism destination (huh?) this is according to Innovative Minds. here's a lil quote from Uzi Gafni (a director of the Israeli Tourism Ministry) which i find interesting

"We didn't go near Chelsea because of its anti-Semitic image prior to the Abramovich era, Manchester United arouses antagonism, and Tottenham, despite its Jewish connection, isn't big enough. Luckily, Arsenal got back to me, just two days after I made the initial contact."

yesterday there were a few locals informing the public about a rally they're gonna have next tuesday. it's a protest against israeli apartheid, the war specifically. i can't remember what exactly was written on the banner they hanged tho. i sometimes ask myself, knape kite, or maybe me, tak se-semangat dorg ni bile buat benda camni? where is my, if not humanity, sympathy for a poor muslim? *sigh*

today's match was very entertaining to be fair. i kinda like the goal from rafael. superb volley. and on this point, the bloody scousers have already scored 2 goals. they're playing against west brom anyway boohoo~ xp

anyhoo, my butt still sores. it has been so since last wednesday. it might be the squash. talk about being a pain in the arse xp

p/s: boycott israel!

remember, remember...

2008-11-05T22:15:00.003+08:00

bismillah

...the 5th of november

Remember, remember the Fifth of November,

The Gunpowder Treason and Plot,

I can think of no reason

Why the Gunpowder Treason

Should ever be forgot.

i love the movie. i dunno much about the actual history, but it sure got me interested. most of it because, wait, i think i did this before urghhh..

anyway, obama won. didn't interest me much. but i expect much from him since all the hoo haa about him being a pro-islam. i dunno, we wait and see, shall we? x)

the worst...

2008-11-05T21:57:00.002+08:00

bismillah

...defeat ever. put aside the excuse of playing away from home (the italian 'hooligans' are pretty scary tho) last nite's game was horrible. trailing by 3 to nil, is just not chelsea. i can only say that the defensive line was somewhat ridiculous. the first goal obviously showed. as if they're playing foosball, the defenders was standing still in line, watching the bloody roman (i just made that one up) tuck the ball in sheeesh

the other teams, well, barca only got a draw, better than chelsea, but still, it's a debut team, i think, they were against. liv, as usual, did their voodoo and got a penalty at 90+3 mins. great finishing stevie g, but what's up with the jumping celebration mate? xp

hopefully, tonite's game won't be as disappointing. with the hype around celtic park recently, i at least hope it would be a balanced game. go celts! xp

pride of london...

2008-11-02T18:28:00.004+08:00

bismillah

haha

hahaha

hahahaha

for some, this might be quite vague, but on the other hand, some may have just the right idea about what im laughing at

chelsea crushed the black cats (as usual) 5 to nothing. ouh and only under 1 hour. watched only the highlights. now, that is only what i can do. it wont be as fun as live matches, but at least, you know.

hull city proved that they kinda have what it takes to stay in the top league. tho lost to man u by one goal, they almost stole a pt when man u got their guards down. and of course, although saying that, hull didn't manage to take anything from chelsea when the blues visited KC stadium. their good, but chelsea's better xp and i'm starting to think that fergie made a good call by reeling berbatov in last time

and now i've come to the best part. liverpool. beaten off the top of the league by a bottom league team, the spurs. consistency mates! and go pavlyuchenko! xp

arsenal, as for lately, has kinda fallen off the radar, my radar, a bit. i haven't come across any big headlines with the arse-nals name on in it. and recent lost to stoke city, that's kinda sad for a top four team

anyway, here's an interesting record on football, yeah scousers, ye got yer team on it xp

Top 10 unbeaten records

Asec Abidjan – 108

1 WITH a side packed full of Ivory Coast internationals, Asec Abidjan went 108 matches unbeaten between 1989 and 1994, managed by respected French coach Phillipe Troussier. When their winning streak eventually ended – 2-1 defeat by SO Armée – the backlash was immediate: they crushed their next opponents 11-0. Now that’s bouncebackability.

Liverpool – 85

2 ANFIELD has long been considered a fortress – but never more so than in the late 70s and early 80s. Liverpool went 85 games unbeaten in front of their own fans in all competitions, between 21 January 1978 and 31 January 1981. The team which ended the run? Relegated Leicester City, who had long been considered a Reds bogey team.

AC Milan – 58 games.

3 THE AC Milan of Ruud Gullit, Marco van Basten, Frank Rijkard, Franco Baresi and Paolo Maldini went a massive 58 league games undefeated between May 19, 1991 and March 21, 1993. They were eventually undone at the San Siro by Parma, with a goal from Faustino Asprilla.

Arsenal - 49 games.

4 WE waited an entire century to see a team of Invincibles reign again.

Proud Preston were unbeaten in a 22-match season in 1888-89, then we had to wait another 115 years for the next team to manage an entire season unbeaten.

It was Arsene Wenger’s elegant and exciting Arsenal side which did it, from May 7 2003 through to October 24 2004.

Maccabi Haifa – 48.

5 THE Israeli side dominated their own Liga Leumit in the early 1990s, none more so than between April 3, 1993 and October 10, 1994 when they went 48 matches undefeated.

Nottingham Forest – 42

6 BRIAN CLOUGH’S great Nottingham Forest side went the equivalent of a whole league season – 42 games back in the 1970s – without defeat.

The run spanned the end of the 1977-78 season and the start of the 1978-79 campaign, before Liverpool ended the run thanks to a couple of Terry McDermott goals.

Liverpool and Leeds – 29 games.

7 THE 20th Century’s longest unbeaten runs from the start of the season were held by those old great rivals, Liverpool and Leeds. The Yorkshiremen’s run ended at Stoke, with one hand already on the title, Liverpool’s bid to beat the record was ended by neighbours Everton – but again the title was already pretty much in the bag.

Blackburn Rovers – 24 ties.

8 THE clue is in the phraseology. Blackburn didn’t just go 24 games unbeaten, they managed 24 FA Cup ties after losing 1-0 at local rivals Darwen in December 1882. The remarkable run ended on November 27, 1886 when they lost to Scottish team Renton 2-0. Rovers lifted the Cup three times in a row. The record still stands today.

Dino Zoff – 1,143 minutes.

9 THE legendary Italian goalkeeper went more than 12 games without conceding a goal . . . before Haiti’s Emmanuel Sanon famously raced away during the 1974 World Cup.

Everton – Seven years

10 NOT an unbeaten run in the true sense of the word, but the Blues were undisplaced champions for a sum total of 11 years. Champions when the Great War broke out in 1914, they kept their crown until 1919, then they were champions again on the eve of the Second World War in 1938/39, keeping their crown until the spring of 1947.

taken from echo.co.uk

enjoy your football! x)

c'mon...

2008-11-02T16:28:00.001+08:00

bismillah

this is pretty random,
but anyway, what is the world coming to?!

pathetic

reality check man, reality check *sigh*

untitled...

2008-11-02T01:00:00.003+08:00

bimillah

mis jas told me to

Starting time: 1701
Name: wan
Sisters: 1
Brothers: nil
Shoe size: 7 or depend on the shoes
Height: 170-ish

Where do you live: home
Have you ever been on the plane: yup
Swam in the ocean: plane crashed, had to
Fallen asleep at school: who hasn't
Broken someone's heart: one of the bad habbits xp
Fell off my chair: haha losers, nope

Sat by the phone waiting all night for someone to call: nev-er
Saved emails: forgot about it
What's you room look like: neat, at least to my definition xp
What's right beside you: wallet, keys, wrist watch and remoulade-mayonnaise
What's the last thing you ate: 2 pizzas and tons of wedges

Ever had chicken pox: not quite sure...
sore throat: once in a while, football usually
broken nose: na'ah

Do you believe in love at first sight: love? it happens, sometimes, infatuation? definitely haha
Do you like picnic: yes, beach please

Who was/were the last
person you danced with: i dun dance xp
made you smile: here? hmmm... cant point at one
you yelled at: not yet did

Today, did you
talk to someone you like: not really
kiss anyone: hoped, but didnt obviously
get sick: nope
talk to an-ex: nope
miss someone: not really

Who do you really hate: shud i answer this?
Do you like your handwriting: of cos, who else wud if not me?
Are your toe nails painted: nope
What colour shirt are you wearing now: brown

Are you a friendly person: it depends
Do you have any pets: nope
Do you sleep with tv/laptop on: most of the times
What are you doing right now: again, shud i answer this?
Can you handle the truth: yeah
Are you closer to mother or father: family secrets xp
Do you eat healthy: haha, not

Do you still have picture of you and your ex: dun hav ex
If you're having a bad day, most likely you will go: get busy
Are you quiet or loud most of the time: quiet
Are you confident: sometimes, depends on what im doing

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1) primary school
2) computer games
3) computer games
4) computer games
5) computer games, yeah, try and judge me xp

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1) keep studying
2) give some
3) bomb the freaking israel
4) buy an island for me familia, thats mom n dad
5) buy chelsea fc, woot!

5 of my bad habits:
1) couch potato
2) lazy
3) games
4) one mentioned above
5) and of cos, blunt-and-no-regard-for-others'-feeling gestures

5 places I've lived in:
1) ampang
2) gentam
3) lembah beringin
4) edin
5) just trying to make the list look longer

btw, does onegai mean 'please'?

i'll spare the others hehe xp

sel-fish..

2008-11-01T18:07:00.004+08:00

bismillah

i wrote this out of frustration. i've just thrown out 2 packs of fish in butter sauce. it was disgusting! i dunno how ppl eat it, but i can never gorge in that thing. the smell's horrendous. i tried to take a few sip, but i just cudn't continue. i'll spare the visual

now i gotta eat that dry nachos of mine *sigh*

a 'side dish', since more n more 'fake' scousers have come upon me and talk about the last so-called 'beating', i have one thing to say, stop living the dream mates, cuz d liv barely beat d blues. one nil? cmon?

i realised i got tag by mis jas, i probly do it later cuz i'm just so frustrated wit the fish in the sauce thingy arghhh!

am i in too deep?..

2008-10-29T06:13:00.003+08:00

bismillah

today, this is what i thought this morning. am i 'in too deep'?

it's something that you take on, career, relationship, commitment of any kind. at the very beginning, you're very sure that this is what you want, this is what you're born to do. then, at one point, you doubt every reason that made you make such commitment. and by that time, you realize that it's already too late to turn back. in fact, the journey that you took changed you. you can even tell the difference between what is right and what is not.

some may think i'm talking about me being a doctor, if so, then screw you! haha of course i wanna be a doctor. i wanna cut your head open, take your brain out, and put it in a jar so i can do some research. think of it as you contributing to mankind xp

i'm quite lazy today, had a formative exam, it meant notin much to me tho xp so i'm just gonna make a few song dedication to myself as no one else would do it to me anyway (i'm not sad! xp)

i'm really lost, isk isk... xp

I cant sit back and wonder why.
It took so long for this to die.
And I hate it when you fake it.
You cant hide it you might as well embrace it.
So believe me its not easy.
It seems that somethings telling me

stuff the ball up in my ***...

2008-10-26T16:36:00.003+08:00

bismillah

i've just finished watching the last bit of 'burn after reading' movie, dun quote me on this or i'll get screwed. the movie was hilarious in a peculiar way. i dunno how to shove it into one pigeon hole of genres. the stories are just intertwined together that make it even interesting. go watch it if you're interested enough to know, but it may not worth your quids or ringgit or yen or what ever. so don't come back and say i didn't warn you xp

yesterday was the trip to glasgow, for SNIMS. i dunno wat SNIMS stands for, but now, it's officially stands for stupid-glasgow-medics-stupid-basket-glasgow-ball. take that! i was sooo frustrated, in fact the whole team was frustrated. i was sorry for jim cuz he wasn't informed on the stupid rules that they made up. he felt bad cuz some of us didn't play worth our while. i played for like 4 or 5 minutes for one game and amazingly only scored one basket sheesh and i got this one guy judging me on my ability in basketball. the guy cudn't even ***kin' make a proper jumpshot *urghh!!!* bad mouthing is so malaysian, i know, i shud stop *sigh*

tho we only got 2nd place, kaz kept mentioning that we all know who's the best. damn right we do. so we left the place around 4pm and i reach home around half past 7. was so tired slept around 8 pm

a bit bout glasgow. first of all, if you're in edinburgh, thank God for that. 2nd, it is so freakin wet. we arrived there ard 9am, it was raining, and by the time we left, it was still raining. the wind is no diferent than the one in edinburgh, strong as hell. yesterday was the wrong day to wear my cotton jumper, i was soaking wet. i walked around for almost 2 hours trying to find a mosque, and i ended up praying in the changing room sheesh

i didn't take any pic except for a pic of a pink stretch limo. i dun wanna trouble myself posting it here, it's a waste anyway

x)

ciao!
(that's hello or gudbye in czech according to michael)

p/s: btol x abg meor? xp

tempat duduk arthur...

2008-10-24T22:01:00.001+08:00

bismillah

i was sooo tired yesterday that i fell asleep around 10 o'clock. it's good to sleep early, if you're a BABY. i got tons of reading to do and i was about to post about my trip to Arthur's Seat (pics of it) when i fell asleep in front of my laptop *sigh*

i didn't have enough time to like properly look through the pics i got tho. anyway, here goes..

and the journey begins...vain (not me, my shadow xp)our trailthere were swansx tau ape bende tu

it was a very nice day

on our way backim x sure what's the spelling of the name for that thing..
Sailsbury Craigfountain of youth..one of my favourite shotsthis toothis three

failed atttempt to make a good shot (with me in it)chilling (literally) at the topim sorry, just gotta post this haha xp

these are shots from afiq's cam

just before i hit the rock, face first xp just kidding

definitely the best shot of the day, kudos afiq!

dun ask me! xp

boys at the top

a pleasant boys' day out

that's pretty much how it was. the day turned out to be very nice and sunny. tho sunny, the wind was very cold, especially when we were at the peak.

the place is very nice tho. the pics only barely describe it. it's not really something that you come all the way to edinburgh just to see it, but for sure, you'll appreciate it once you're here

cheers~

bon appétit...

2008-10-22T07:28:00.004+08:00

bismillah

just finished study and stuff. thought i get a few things off my chest.

i've been having my dinner at my flat. this means that i dun have proper access to cooking utensils. bkan xde, ade but dorg buat masak babi. this means that i cant cook, and it's not like i could anyway. so my dinners have always been from-freezer-to-oven dishes, just like this

perfect dinner x)

spicy wedges, onion rings, fish fillet and with a touch of garlic ketchup and cheese in a jar. voila! x) genius, simply genius hahaha!

i know, it's not good, it doesnt have a balanced nutrition with all the vitamins and stuff. yeah, probably. it may not be healthy, but at least my stomach is happy x)

i mean, how can it not be perfect? just imagine eating cheesy wedges every night. heaven right? yea yea.. ofcos you'll get bored of d same thing. then tukar la sheesh it's not like it's rocket science -_-'

anyhoo, a lil snips from 'd kitchen'

if this is already bad, i cant imagine if its about 'the chips' or in ma-layman's term 'keropoks' hehe xp

cheers~

i see dead people...

2008-10-22T00:16:00.002+08:00

bismillah

forgive the corny title. just cudn't help it hehe

had my anatomy practical just now. was only an introduction. but i got to 'play' around with flesh and bones yippee! the stench is fairly bearable, u'd get used to it after a while. to think that we probably will do this more often in the next few years, i just thought, sweet! x)

the session was fairly enjoyable. i got to touch some of the fresh bodies there. there were like four dead bodies and the one i started off with was dead 2 years ago due to some cancer. the demonstrator said that the body was all green when it 1st arrived due to the consequences of the cancer, it attacked the liver and what not. and some of the parts are actually still green. so i had to go to another one. fresh. still got fluid running out of em. nice

had another day of lectures on ethics. you know, abortion, patient-doctor confidentiality, euthanasia, yada yada yada.. they always said that there is no right or wrong answer. argue here, argue there, and we'll get to an answer, but we wont be sure if it's the best one, we sure hope it is.

i just thought, why couldnt there be one right answer? in fact, it actually can (i rase la). but this is if and only if, everyone abide by the same rules. i dunno, rules like, hmm.. Allah's?

it sounds a lil idealistic, ain't it? but someone once said, 'imagination exceeds one's knowledge' btol ke ni? -_-

is the world already at its end?..

2008-10-19T18:00:00.004+08:00

bismillah

time has been very fast these few days. days feels like hours, hours feel like minutes, and minutes are just like seconds. and i, have been very lazy these last few days. i haven't read anything for the coming exam *sigh* if only the subjects could be more appealing to be read. and i already think that most of em are interesting subjects -_-'

alright, enuf wit the complaining and whining. i have a basketball thingy today, two basketball thingies actually. missed the 1st one, so i had like 3, but now it's only 2 (im starting to membebel like an old lady sheesh) i did this test. looking at my state now, malas and letih, it's an irony to see that my greatest strength is body movement. that was followed by logic and language. well at least i can claim that those people actually think that i have a strength -_-

so while munching on the wedges, i read a few articles, still not on the academic stuff, im just too worn out, on defesive mechanism. luckily it was a light reading as i have expected, so xde la tension sgt. these are the links

mental help.com
science direct.com

the 2nd one is a lil bit panjang, but it's a good read. and btw, the article says that i have at least 2 MATURE defensive mechanisms, and denial is no longer on my list haha xp

the freezing wind is blowing like hell outside. i dunno if i cud get to pleasance and not freeze to death on my way there

sami yusof..

2008-10-15T16:48:00.000+08:00

bismillah

this is very nicely done

enjoy! x)

surprise, surprise..

2008-10-14T00:40:00.003+08:00

bismillah

today i bought today's paper and a small box of cereals. it comes with a free bowl. and they all cost me just 30 pence. but that's not all..

the packagesee that?

that says malaysian fish stew. damn right. u read notin wrong bout it haha

in the the freshers' guide, in the recipe section, ade resepi malaysia. bangga gak r. at least some of them noticed us hehe

open house..

2008-10-13T22:58:00.004+08:00

bismillah

yesterday, there was an open house over at the teviot's place.

the 'busy' preparation xp

'abang2 pintu' yg amat peramah

and the eating continues..

actually, kalo tengok kat gamba yang last skali tu, half of the people there are actually the 'tuan rumah' or 'co-tuan rumah' hehe

but then again, thanx to their generosity, dapat la umat kat ediburgh ni makan masakan malaysia

i'm just to lazy to write anything more on this one. just gotta doze off

chee..z Z Z.. -_-

weekend...

2008-10-11T04:48:00.006+08:00

bismillah

finally it's the weekend... wait, no, it's again the weekend... nope. which one is the best expression now? hurm.. the latter wud mean i dread the hole week coz it flew away way too fast, the other one wud simply mean i dread the whole week for being so long and stressful. what a way to look at the glass half empty huh? for some at least..

any way, final verdict,

finally it's again the weekend.. it has been very tiring, and that's for sure. nothing is ever like this before. so much things to take in as well as to give out. just to give a hint for some who might have done biology in college. in here, the topics you might have covered in a week or two, are done in under an hour. but kalo ade prospective medics yg bace ni, hehe rilek r, jgn takut, it's actually better when u're prepared kan? x)

but the overall view (not my personal view k?), this uni has one of the best medicine course, even compared to the oxbridge. oxbridge nye, org kate cam tradisional sket, edin cam intergrated sket r. it kinda has a lil bit of everything that adds to the main core of medicine. some kate those things are kinda rubbish. it's kinda like the icing on the cake je. but i dunno, i've only been here for a few week, i'll reserve my judgement for after 5 years x)

today xde byk benda sgt. everything ended around half past 12. so lepas solat jumaat je terus balik umah n stayed here since. if i were to put it in words, how i felt when i arrived at my room, i'd say, i exhaled longer than any human has ever exhaled (that sounded a lil shallow ain't it?) anyway, i just thought that i shud take a time out from the academic and social hectic, and just chill out on my private island hehe hulahu, hulahu, hu la la la, hulahuuu~ (hawaiian themed song) xp

apart from solat breaks, i pretty much was glued onto my laptop. surfing and all. and found quite a few interesting stuff

this shud give u a good thought to ponder upon

this one, found it on nanue's blog. i kinda enjoy reading the respond section (enjoy has a very subjective definition, just a reminder)

i downloaded a few movie, read a few article, news and stuff. i also amazingly remembered one really funny cartoon show back in primary school time i think. it wasnt exactly a cartoon, stop motion actually. remember these guys?

the PJ's

i remember there was this one short trailer of the series where there was this homeless guy singing the 'wonderful world' song haha quite funny. it's amazing how they can make the clay come alive. i vaguely remember the episodes, but i'm about to be refreshed as i've just downloaded the 1st season hehe x)

still feel bad for being selfish tho.. sori ye kawan2 x)

liar

2008-10-10T05:55:00.004+08:00

bismillah

since im half asleep, i'll just share a lil interesting fact that i got from aqtar.

aqtar is a 2nd year medic. in 2nd year in edinburgh uni, the first big chapter is some part of neurology. so one day when we were preparing for buke puase, yes, we, i repeat, we were cooking hehe he mentioned about what he learned that day. here goes... (my version)

do u remember when u were a lil todler or had a lil todler who runs around the place and eventually bump their head onto sumtin? and when they do, do u remember what were the things that we will always do? as i remember it, i'll probably take my hand and press against the head. or maybe a lil more love, my mak will come and put her hand onto my head and whisper those magic words. and my pain will soon subside

here comes the science part. we all have pain receptor and a touch receptor in our skin. i dunno how it is, but aqtar said that these two are antagonistic, which means they work against each other. when one is stimulated, the other will be inhibited. so the idea is, when u bump ur head on the door, the pain receptor will be stimulated. and it has been our nature, that everytime this happen, we will take our hand and put it over the hurt area. so, this will stimulate the touch receptor and inhibit the pain receptor. so xde la rasa sakit lg

perfect kan? Allah created us so perfect x)

a lil experiment, try banging ur head onto a wall and see whether ur hand will move towards ur head by u not doing it deliberately. chances r, ur hand will move.

p/s: pls forgive me if the post doesnt make much sense. it's probably the delivery yg teruk n i yg mata dah kuyu ni -_-

pressured...

2008-10-10T05:15:00.001+08:00

bismillah

"True friendship doesn’t depend on how many times friends spend time together or how happy they are. It’s the time when you never see them and yet keep on believing that the friendship will stay forever"

x)

p/s: still xde semangat nak post. sori *sigh*

virtual reality...

2008-10-08T01:00:00.003+08:00

bismillah

tajuk xde kena-mengena dgn post ni.

agak impress. my first purchase ever, online hehe

bkan joystick, cover die je xp

bought it at amazon.co.uk. and btw, i dun think kalo kat malaysia we can be sure the stuff'll reach us, let alone in time. pos malaysia kan sgt efisen hehe xp

a start for the day...

2008-10-05T19:29:00.002+08:00

bismillah

stucked online for the rest of the morning listening to malaysian radio channels. *sigh* home sickness is daunting when u actually experienced it. yeah, it may not sound that macho and all, but who doesn't love home, right?

che vs villa today. looking at the line-up, scolari had to put on some young guns just to have enough players for the starting line up. these kind of matches often give me the scare. too depending on the senior squad, not sure if the young ones can deliver when push comes to shove. but i dun think chelsea is gonna lose. draw probly. and keep that unbeaten record of 83 home league fixtures and and 27 premier league matches on the run haha

going to have lunch out. not sure where yet. probly gonna try palmyra. they have students' discount, tho only 10%. got an emsa family's open house invitation just now but i was so lazy to rush to another social gathering today. no free meals for me x)

ridiculous!..

2008-10-05T15:31:00.001+08:00

bismillah

giler ape?

nauzubillah

tv licence...

2008-10-05T06:58:00.002+08:00

bismillah

i had the curiousity cuz i've been listening to the fly.fm and hot.fm radio online. so i searched to find out whether i need to pay for a licence for my tv or laptop. thats only cuz i use my laptop to listen to the radio (nak dengar lagu raye je sebenarnye xp)

checked out this link

luckily, i don't x)

p/s: mase kat malaysia xnah nak dgr radio melayu, dah jauh baru la nak sibuk2 cari hahaha xp

catching up...

2008-10-05T03:24:00.004+08:00

bismillah

saje break kejap

i still can't talk much about edin cuz i've been spending most of my time doin less necessary stuff. so due to that, i barely have enuf time to revise and make notes. it then lead to a lot of catching up to do. my hope is, lepas weekend ni, i'll be in good shape to throttle my way through the whole semesters and cease the oppotunity given, eventually at least.

ceh, serious sgt la plak xp

barely planned any traveling around edin, let alone uk or europe *sigh* :(

pray for me best x)

awaited pics...

2008-10-05T01:06:00.004+08:00

bismillah

xde la 'awaited' mane pics tu. saje je nak kasi gempak sket tajuk die haha

baru balik emsa's 'meet n greet' sempena hari raya. kira macam open house gak r. in fact name tempat tu pon adam house. cume xtau sape adam tu je la x) n to me, not trying to be rude, it's pretty much meet n greet je. social skill '0' nak way camne. maybe i need some of that 'social lubricant' la firdaus xp

did a lil housekeeping. it's been a week since the last one, so it's pretty much the time to do it anyway. the temperature here is said to drop as low as 8 degrees. and we're not even in winter yet *cuak*

tu la bangunan die

ni pintu die

and the rest is my room

alhamdulillah, the room is comfortable and my housemate pon ok gak r. can't escape their norm of drinking and partying though.

p/s: so adek, tengok la ye bilik abang ni hehe

everything has a hikmah...

2008-10-03T03:52:00.002+08:00

bismillah

ingat balik tadi nak post sumtin cuz last time when my sis called, i promised to put some picture up in here. tp tengah belek some stuff, the connection suddenly didn't work. so terbantut la keinginan tu. but luckily my basement-mate has a similar problem. he used my phone and got in touch with the resnet guy. so, menyelam sambil minum air, my connection is fixed.

tho, i can't post any picture rite now. i have to get working. too many work have been long overdued. so xleh lame2

like they all say it here, cheers. x)

eid or no eid?..

2008-10-02T06:05:00.002+08:00

bismillah

hari ni ari raya kedua kat edin. notin much is different. everyone, mostly, went on with their daily life just like any other day. we, student malaysia yang muslim nih, whining about the environment not helping one bit on making this eid a memorable one, in a good way at least :(

luckily today is 'hari koko'. kalo macam kat stj dulu, hari ni ade perjumpaan macam kelab n persatuan. here, i dunno bout any other part in uk, they have their classes to end early and spend the rest of they day, by the way i saw it, on the field. it's cool. as i walk home crossing the meadows, both sides are filled with people and sweats, the were even a bunch of guys warming up for american football. i tot they dun like sports from the states? x)

after zuhur we went to princess st. i went to pick up the things i needed to pick up and went straight back home. got a call from home after that. i went out to talk as the reception isn't that great from my room

and today i saw an amazing view. i didn't realize how close we are to the sea. i stood by the south bridge and saw the whole thing. the were some nice old building as well. i'll probly gonna cek it out

i'm off to house ep3 x)
ciao!

p/s: and btw, it is freezing cold here!

just an ordinary day?..

2008-09-30T06:37:00.004+08:00

bismillah

the wind was cold as, hurm.. was going to say 'hell' but it wont make sense. but anyway, the wind was like a freezer on full blast. even the wool jacket couldn't do me any favour. walking past the meadows and marchmont is numbing, and on some morning and evening, it meant literally

the jawbone walk crossing the meadows

the marchmont

i've just came back from aqtar's place. had my iftar there, as usual. got a few other fellow malaysians as well. i have been having my iftar there since i arrived here, and always had to walk home for about 20minutes. those nights, takde skali pon yg tak sejuk. but the dishes we had, often than not, were good x)

they say that it could and probly will get worsefor the next few months, i just hope that i can bare it. kalo tak abih la hypotermia xp

ouh btw, today wasnt really an ordinary day, it is the last day of ramadhan. hopefully we will meet another ramadhan in our short life, and hopefully it will be better than the last one

so, selamat hari raya aidilfitri
maaf zahir batin
x)

yippee!...

2008-09-28T23:52:00.005+08:00

bismillah

alhamdulillah, tanggal 28 september 2008, jam 4.53 petang waktu tempatan, the guy in resnet finally managed to figure out my internet connection problem. we were on the phone for almost 45mins, but call is free tho hehe. i'm so excited right now, tho i shud hv been about a week ago for the same reason, but better late than never rite?

hopefully after this my daily routine will be normal, that is not having to go to the library early in the morning just to check on the schedule on eemec. and on the lighter note, now i hope my blog wont be so out-dated anymore

kudos to the resnet guy, and alhamdulillah

nak gi solat asar

x)

i'm here..

2008-09-20T21:12:00.002+08:00

bismillah

safely landed and currently cannot write so much now cuz i can't access the internet from my room yet. i'm in firdaus's room. but grateful to finally arrive here

more updates later x)

top form?..

2008-09-17T11:22:00.002+08:00

bismillah

lupe plak pasal this morning. opening match for UCL. bukan university college london, UEFA champions league. chelsea fought, or shud i say stomped, bordeaux. haha. i din watch the match. slept on the couch.

so this morning when i got up, i watched eurosport news and thought,'ala.. dah agak dah' hahaha the goals are awesome. especially when the unsung hero of stamford bridge, joe cole, got his name on the score sheet. kesian joe cole, kalo che main, commentator xnah nak puji die

anyway, there was also another great news, JT won the appeal and gonna help chelsea face man u this weekend. but the bad news is i wouldnt get to watch the match *sigh* :( i bet it wud be a cracking one. che beat man u at stamford bridge last season. with all the great players that have been brought in including scolari, the least wud be a draw fo this season haha

all's (not very) well, (hopefully will) end well...

2008-09-17T11:10:00.003+08:00

bismillah

got my visa this morning. relieved? you bet. skrg ade kat cc tgh tunggu mak call. she said she's gonna take half day today. so i wanna pick her up so that i can do some final shopping.

alhamdulillah, so far xde pape lg needs to be settled. harap2 xde la. so i can just get my way to edin already hehe

sebak tu mmg r ade. tp u hafta stay strong for them la kan? x)

btw, semalam mr khaizan did gave me the scare when he said all the tix for 17th n 18th are fully booked. but petang, pn hamidah called n said they got us our tix. just when u think things couldn't get any worse rite? phew..

stuck..

2008-09-16T00:34:00.003+08:00

bismillah

as for this moment, i'm stuck. visa application, as for other people as well (considering the number of people i saw at the embassy x) ), has been the major problem for students going to UK. and unfortunately, i'm one of 'em.

if my calculation is not wrong, today would be the 13th day and 8th working day since my application submission day. so much for 'ready in 7 working days' aye? anyway, there's nothing much i can do right now except for pester the high commission people. but the thing is, i can't even get through to the visa people there. sheesh.. :(

but if u're reading this, do pray for the best k. i appreciate it x)

"Dan mintalah pertolongan dengan sabar dan mendirikan solat. Sesungguhnya hal yang demikian adalah berat melainkan bagi orang-orang yang khusyuk."
(Al-Baqarah:45)

dah agak dah

2008-09-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

bismillah

completely a hoax.
luckily i'm prepared x)

prevention is (definitely) better than cure..

2008-09-13T12:24:00.004+08:00

bismillah

about a month ago, i wiki-ed for house md season 5. the page said it would be out by 16 sept. so my quest for the truth ends there. as u know it, wikipedia is almost fully reliable, with some exceptions. so i xde la cari kat tempat lain lagi, even fox homepage sendri (see it is really that reliable xp)

dying changes everything..

so today i check my usual dload spot, and saw house s05e01. hurmm.. as to not make the same mistake again, i just do the downloading and wait till i get home. dun get excited for too soon

p/s: i can't play it at cc even it is an .avi file. hmm.. first hint of more errors to come. nothing is great when you get stuff for free x) ouh except for bubur lambuk at masjids during ramadhan haha xp

ok gune ramadhan elok2 x)

efficiency?...

2008-09-13T12:02:00.003+08:00

bismillah

the last time i actually write something here, hurmm... i have to admit, about a month ago. just around the time when a-lvl results was out. once the results was out, the rest is as u know it.

so after dropping my emak n sis at jalan masjid india, i went str8 to cc. figured that there was time from then to zuhur, i might as well serve my blog a lil favor.

just recently, firdaus and i had to reschedule our flight. our visas weren't out by friday. so we cant take a flight on sunday with the rest of the people we were supposed to. but that's just a small matter if i were to compare other things that have happened over the last month. thus, our flight is on tuesday x)

hope that our journey will be smoothen by Him. amin

racism...

2008-09-09T22:40:00.001+08:00

bismillah

i'm against it!

bacelah, sekejap je x)

surat fatimah gemparkan kota Baghdad...

2008-09-04T09:07:00.004+08:00

bismillah

i just feel obligated to share tis

Fatimah adalah seorang saudara perempuan seorang mujahid yang terkenal didaerah Abu Gharib, yang berasal dari sebuah keluarga yang terkenal kebaikandan ketaqwaannya. Suatu hari pasukan AS menyerbu rumahnya, dengan tujuanmenangkap saudaranya. Namun karena mereka tidak dapat menemukannya, pasukanAS menangkap Fatimah dengan tujuan memaksa saudaranya menyerahkan diri.

Surat tulisan tangan Fatimah, baru-baru ini berhasil diselundupkan keluardari penjara Abu Gharib, surat ini menggambarkan penderitaan para tawananwanita akibat perbuatan terntara AS. Segera surat ini tersebar danmenghebohkan kota Baghdad , mengirimkan gelombang yang akan terus berlanjutke seluruh Iraq !
*Mafkarat al-Islam* berhasil mendapatkan salinan surat tersebut.

*Bismillahirrahmanirrahiim.*

*Say He is God the One; God the Source [of everything]; Not has He fathered,nor has He been fathered; nor is anything comparable to Him.* [*Qur*an*,Surat 112 *al-Ikhlas*]*

*Saya menulis surat Al-Ikhlas ini karena mempunyai arti yang mendalam bagisaya, dan menimbulkan getaran di hati orang-orang yang beriman.* *Saudaraku mujahidin di jalan Allah* Apa yang dapat kukatakan padamu?* *Sayakatakan, rahim-rahim kami telah terisi dengan janin akibat perkosaan yangdilakukan keturunan kera dan babi itu. Mereka telah menodai tubuhkami,meludahi muka kami, dan merobek-robek Al-Quran untuk digantungkankeleher-leher kami. Allahu Akbar.*

*Tidakkah kau mengerti tentang kejadian yang menimpa kami? Betulkah kau tidaktahu ini terjadi pada kami? Kami saudaramu, dan Allah akan meminta tanggungjawabmu tentang kejadian ini kelak.**

**Demi Allah, tidak semalam pun kami lewatkan di penjara ini kecuali merekamendatangi salah satu dari kami untuk melampiaskan nafsu setannya.. Padahalkami selalu menjaga kehormatan kami karena takut kepada Allah. Takutlah padaAllah! Bunuhlah kami bersama mereka! Hancurkan mereka bersama kami! Janganbiarkan kami di sini agar mereka bisa bersenang-senang memperkosakami,sesungguhnya ini adalah sebuah perbuatan dosa besar di sisiAllah. Takutlahpada Allah akan urusan kami. Biarkan (jangan serang) tank dan pesawatmereka. Datanglah pada kami di penjara Abu Ghurayb.*

*Saya saudaramu karena Allah. Mereka memperkosa saya lebih darisembilan kalidalam satu hari. Bisakah kau bayangkan? Bayangkansalah satu saudaramu diperkosa. Bersama saya ada 13 gadis, semuanya belummenikah..*

*Semuanya telah diperkosa didepan mata kami semua.*
*Mereka melarang kami untuk sholat. Mereka mengambil pakaian kami, danmembiarkan kami telanjang.. Saat surat ini saya tulis, seorang diantara kamitelah bunuh diri setelah diperkosa beramai-ramai. Seorang tentara memukulnyadi dada dan paha setelah memperkosanya, lalu menyiksanya. Gadis itu kemudianbunuh diri dengan memukulkan kepalanya ke tembok penjara, karena dia sudahtidak sanggup menerima ini. Meskipun bunuh diri dilarang oleh Islam, sayamemaklumi perbuatannya* *Saya hanya berharap, semoga Allah mengampuninya,sesungguhnya Dia Maha engampun.*

*Saudaraku, saya katakan padamu lagi, takutlah pada Allah. Hancurkan kami bersama para tentara itu, agar kami bisa beristirahat dalam damai.*

*Tolonglah kami, tolonglah kami, tolonglah kami**

* Waa Mu*tasimah!.*

*Surat ini telah berakhir, namun penderitaan penulisnya dan para muslimahbelum berakhir.*
*Hatta mataa haadza s-sukuut !!*
*Ini yang sudah kesekian kalinya terjadi..*
*Entah berapa lagi akan segeramenyusul*
*Kemaren, hari ini dan besok*
*Begitu seterusnya..*

*Ya Rabbnasyku ilaika da'fa quwwatina
*Wa qillata hiilatina
*Allahumma n-shurna nashran adziima*
*Allahuma 'alaika bil haaula l-kuffar*
*Allahuma 'alaika biman adzaa l-muslimin..

*sebarkan agar semuanya bisa mengetahui keadaan ini.

Salam al-Mubarak x)

futebol...

2008-08-09T14:45:00.004+08:00

bismillah

I twisted my ankle d other day, again. This kinda thing made me miss my frens even more. Cuz today, when I went for football, I played like crap. Ye la, kalo kat coll or kat skolah dulu, maen cam sampah pon masih bleh gelak2 lagi. Kat sini, maen ngan bdak2 kat sini, salah sket je mula la. comes the long face and start membebel cam mak nenek. Cakap skali org paham la *bluek*

Yeah, ego kinda played a big part in that situation. Sometimes it’s hard to take it in. I’m learning tho. Usually when it comes to times like that, I just turn away. Now la. but dulu, I'll throw something back, metaphorically speaking xp

So my foot now looks like it has an elephant ankle. But that’s nothing I can’t handle. He won’t give me sumtin I can’t handle anyway x)

08.08.08 nite

ADD...

2008-08-09T14:38:00.003+08:00

bismillah

Ari tu pegi MOC and for those yg x tau, it stands for muslim overseas camp. Best sangat. Need not to elaborate on the expression. Learn a bunch of new stuff, well relatively new. I like the fact that you dun know how u might learn something. And that kind of surprises never fail to impress me x)

One instance, I learn about ADD or attention deficit disorder in south park. Yeap, damn right, south park. Exactly the one with the cute characters whom swear like no kid I know, and thank God for that. To learn that kind of terms in house will be fairly obvious, but from south park? No way.

Talking bout attention, I also learn something bout attention in MOC. It got something to do with puppy love or, in my preferred term, cinta monyet xp ustaz hasrizal cakap people who succumb to such temporary leisure (this is in my own words, dun blame ustaz if this is wrong)are mostly people who are lacking in attention, esp from their loved ones, the actual loved ones ie. family. So in order to fulfill the necessity, they seek others’ attention. He also said that we somehow need to give n accept attention in a way of fulfilling ourselves.

I was halfway writing this when I went for asar. During my last takhyat, a cat sat on my lap. So right after salam, I got up and took the cat towards the outside of the surau. I left it just outside of praying area cuz it was raining. Didn’t want it to be soaking. So as I was about to leave the surau, fyi I dun like cat (let’s just say I won’t take one as pet wic makes me kinda clueless bout animals), it followed me. When I tot bout d attention thingy, it kinda make sense x)

p/s: btw ADD is for hyper active, often, kids. now known as ADHD. Check wikipedia if u’re curious enuf xp

07.08.08 5pm

dave...

2008-08-09T14:34:00.001+08:00

bismillah

That’s right. Chivalry is dead. And women killed it
-Dave Chapelle-

He pulled this punch line on one of his show, was it killing me softly or sumtin? I can’t remember the title. Anyway, this guy is freaking hilarious, despite the vulgarity in his language. Unlike russell peters, his jokes are not mainly about making fun of others races or cultures. In fact, sometimes, his jokes made me think.

One of my favourite joke of his is one about fifteen years old. That one kinda made me think how I shud really go back to basics.

Dun blame me, they said look at the message, not at the person. He may look like a nut job to some people, but he did make some sense sometimes. What I’m saying is dun worship these kind of people, like what most of the people did to celebrities nowadays, just reap their ideas off xp

credit...

2008-08-09T14:26:00.004+08:00

bismillah

‘Doing things changes things. Not doing things leaves things exactly as they were’

-House-

He said this while arguing with a teenage who said that time changes everything, which is very true (way of saying I agree xp)

Yeah, I like house. The show I mean. I’m not a ‘gregory house worshipper’, and I’ve met a few people who seemed, or even claimed, that they like the character house to an extent wished that he is real. But there’s nothing wrong with hope, right? xp

Anyways, it darned upon me that in this world, nothing is ours. And I’m talking bout ideas, discoveries and so on. Of course ultimately nothing is ours but His.

Unless u r some super-hi-tech guy who invent something that can make people ‘work without working’ or have any other ability of creating new stuff, u’ll have less chance of claiming something to be urs.

That’s the fact of living in the future. And by future I do mean now. We often quote dead people for their thoughts in order to bring more convincing elements into our point. That only happen bcoz the population honours the people in the past more than they honour the people living now, that’s us.

But why do they do that? I guess the simple reason could be, without them, we’re nothing. What they’ve been through, done, all contribute to who we are now. So they think those people deserve all the credit that we can give. but i mean, i just assume so, not sure if it's rite *shrugs*

So, next time we uses someone’s idea, and we know it’s someone else’s idea, we shud give them the credit they deserve, shouldn’t we? xp

p/s: we dun nid to change the past in order to change our future. rite husna? x)

we cry...

2008-08-09T14:19:00.003+08:00

bismillah

Jenny was a poor girl
Living in a rich world
Named her baby Hope when she was just fourteen
She was hoping for a better world
For this little girl
But the apple doesn't fall too far from the tree

The Script – We Cry

Ever heard of this song? If u fond of the fm radio more than the mp3 collection u have, I’m sure by now u’ve already heard the song. For me, the song came just in time for a lil tune change. The script kinda bring a few genre together. It’s like jason mraz or john mayer with a fresher tune. But I’m saying this only based on this song alone. I dunno bout their other songs.

Nothing particular bout the song tho. Apart from the fact that it has been sticking on the back of my head for a while, I like the message. Cliché. Yeah sure. But what can u do about it? *shrugs*

That last line, especially, reminded me of lectures people have been giving on changing. ‘you wanna change the world, you gotta change the man in the mirror first’. Of course it’s true. I found that the challenge is not in, as I used to think, whether u have the guts to admit that u’re wrong n need to change, but rather the test of putting the thoughts into action. I dunno bout other people, but that’s how it is with me.

My personal thought is (as if the whole post isn’t? xp) there’s a reason in everything. People in the past didn’t put the word ‘world’ in the sentence for no reason. I think they’re trying to say that we shud hv a goal, a motivation. And if the world isn’t good enuf, go for bigger things or maybe smaller. And like some people agree to say now,’all we need are ‘TAHU, MAHU and MAMPU’ xp

note to self: be a good grape xp

bukan x nak..

2008-08-06T23:21:00.004+08:00

bismillah

tp x kesampaian. dh byk kali dah nak update tp bile nak pegi cc je mesti ade benda lain come up. esp wen d results is just around d corner, hempas pulas gak r research clearing. rugi rasenye kalo peluang dibiarkan berlalu if u know wat i mean

anyways, i dun wanna put too much boring stuff. watched dark knight. yes, i have to talk about it. who doesn't? xp one of the best movie thus far. it probably goes under v for vendetta. n i must say this, heath ledger gave the joker that i know back then. kudo for him x)

i didn't watch the earlier batman movie, i think it was batman return i guess. and like i told meor, i didn't solely bcoz i hate the batmobile tat i saw on the trailer. i kinda forgot about it when i went for this one. interesting it may not be, but the day before i watch the movie, i watched cartoon network's 'bat-to-bat batman bat-athon'. it is basically a marathon of batman cartoon series for two hours str8. dun worry, i did it over lunch n some writing, so xde la buang mase sgt xp n they call it guilty pleasure?..

dark knights

i love 2D cartoons like this. i guess simplicity always work. they're like vintage nowadays

and as i'm writing this, i've also finished downloading the movie. the probability of the file working is still in doubt *bites finger*

tips??...

2008-07-23T21:51:00.003+08:00

bismillah

i was overwhelmed. it was a long time ago.

i heard from an entertainment show. i think it was E! Buzz if i'm not mistaken. adam lavigne said 'a good way to find a good guy is to look for a guy who treat his mom good' on answering the question,'list of tips on finding a soulmate for woman'.

i put it in my own words now. but those seem to be the idea back then. what overwhelms me? that would be the result of my observation. i'm not a distinguished researcher or anything so dun blame me if this may offend you xp

so far, the theory seems to give positive result. a guy who seems to have no problems in his relationship with his mom seems to know how to treat a lady. they know how to present themselves, how to talk with a lady, and so on.

so kalo nak test the theory boleh je, just make sure they are real men and women x)

oh btw, what else made me feel overwhelmed? cuz for once, the celebrities in the hollywood say something that make sense haha xp

p/s: i did, at one point of my observation, doubt whether i should include myself, cuz i'm eligible for the variables anyway haha xp

openess or privacy?..

2008-07-19T10:15:00.002+08:00

bismillah

was watching csi wen d ques popped

bloggers, they don't care bout privacy or just value openess?

p/s: beats me, even i hesitated wen trying to answer tat question *sweats*

one of those nights...

2008-07-14T22:39:00.003+08:00

bismillah

*sigh*.. bosannye.. wondered if i cud ever be the goal-oriented kinda guy. always have something to do to achieve the goal, which apparently only he can see it. such motivation is priceless if u ask me. susah gak kalo dari kecik lg hidup ni berdasarkan landasan yg 'pre-prepared' by other people. bile sampai masa camni, xde arah tujuan kejap. bahaya bahaya...

so went on the net to look for some updates on clearing stuff.
completion: 0%
*sigh*
nothing seems to be going my way, hopefully, yet...

read a few stuff, mostly blogs. hard to concentrate when u're at a cc. u'll have this mind set of compressing every task into one short period of time. well it's not like feeling pressured when u're doing exam or netin, but it's kinda throw you a lil of balance.especially when you have all these tabs to check on all at the same time. *sigh*

maybe i'm sigh-ing a lil too much tonite. i better get my butt off this chair. it already feels like home

'mr p' on the making!
haha

p/s: just a silly self motivating chant xp

dreaming

2008-07-05T15:07:00.002+08:00

bismillah

the title may contradict the content, in a way...

it occured to me yesterday

i was driving home, with a friend of mine, big mac. while munching i thought, 'wait, that person hasn't answered me yet. what if i die on my way home? then i'm gonna die not knowing the answer. hmm...'

never take anything in life for granted

you never know if there is ever gonna be another tomorrow
*sigh*

but on the bright side, wait, what's the bright side?
can someone fill me in on this?
meor?
xp

intai-intai

2008-07-02T10:44:00.000+08:00

bismillah

earlier, i din think anyone wud be frustrated. i sincerely do. and because meor said it is, and najib, then i thought i shudnt do such things to my fren, shud i?

so, i'm not really that busy. well it also depends on what 'busy' defines. here's a few things that i have been up to. this just a vauge list of what i've been doing so far, for you two, exclusively hehe xp

#1. Higurashi no Naku Koro ni

for obvious reasons, u can see that this is japanese. a manga. this one has been made into anime long time ago, but haven't i mentioned before that i dun really like anime. i prefer manga. so i actually found this in somebody's laptop just before i left college. guess who's was it. muadz. he said that the anime was great. it was mysterious. so i tot the manga shudnt be far off from the anime, since the anime came from the manga.

it has a few 'arcs' and i have finished almost all of them. but one volume seemed to be incomplete. so, both frustrated and curious, i have to figure out which volume is incomplete thus i can find the one should be downloaded later. i guess it did help muadz by having that japenese dictionary of his (do they even call it 'japanese dictionary'? *sigh*) but looking at the brighter side, i'll have something to look forward to x)

#2. Liar Game

nope, it's not really a game. in fact a nother manga i got from muadz. a lil less heavier than higurashi. it's like death note but with more reality (hehe some people might how convinient that is to me xp) it's fun to read. not that stressing, and you could play the guessing game with yourself while you're at it

#3. How to read people like a book?

this one is not a manga, but a book, a very old book. i was so bored that i actually dig up the stacks of book at my house to find something that i can do to kill time, hopefully to kill it wisely. if that ever make sense

i found that this book got my ayah's name on it. and it wrote '81. when i turned to the back cover, some of it has been eaten by anai2, i presumed, cuz it seemed like so. but honestly, the title sure savours excitement. in a very weird kind of way i guess. so i picked it up x)

#4. basketball

quite delighted to see the court is merry again. all the 'otai's are here almost every evening. so i wouldnt be so bored playing with school kids anymore. well it's not like they're not good, it's just sometimes hard to give it your all when you know they're just kids.

#5. lucu lucu

just a side manga i like to read now and then. it's like doraemon + dr slump in a way. it's just basically comprised of short stories. ok la kalo boring sangat

for now, tu je la. movies, yg dlm hard disk smua dh abis tgk. series tinggal csi je yg belum tgk. and the rest of the time, biase la, cari je la ape2 krj yg ade kat umah tu. bile dh bosan thp nih, basuh tandas pon jd seronok, percaye la
x)

dormant

2008-06-13T21:22:00.002+08:00

bismillah

firstly, sory la blog, lame x update. bukan xnak, connection kat coll ade masalah sket. kesian kat org kat TimeDotCom tu, mesti byk org merungut mase ade masalah ari tu. tp xpe, skrg internet dah ok sket. not any better than before, but at least there's sumtin. alhamdulillah

this is just a lil quickie. now that every senior has finished their exam, i've started to see empty chalets. quite a bunch who went back. i guess they want to spend more time with their folks back home. good for them. few that are still here probably live far from coll or just wanna spend their last week with their friends before parting for at least two months or so, but some will meet for certain occasions though.

anyway, glad to be back, at least for now. ciaw!

p/s: kena post cepat2 sblm connection putus balik xp

sunday morning

2008-06-08T09:20:00.000+08:00

bismillah

hari ni hari ahad (lame attempt to appear funny to myself) as usual, the dining hall will be serving us nasi lemak. honestly, it is not really the best in town as the nasi is sometimes a lil too sticky and the sambal is just a lil too hot for some people, just like the one we had this morning. so i heard a few whiner cursing over the meal. c'mon la, xkan org nak igtkan pasal org kat afrika yg x makan tu tiap2 kali nasi lemak lembik atau sambal pedas tsk bersyukur la sket. tp yg peliknya, bising2 pon, licin gak tray tu. alhamdulillah la x)

since there are no current issues that haven't been discussed by scholars of blogosphere ie. oil price and the insanity of malaysian politics, i've decided to give a review on the movie taken from stephen king's book, the mist (i'm desperate, ok, i get it)

first of all, citer ni mmg bagus sbb xde aksi2 tipikal filem hollywood (part yang slalu buat filem hollywood x lepas censorship board malaysia) part yg melebihi deskripsi label 18PL.

basically the story have a very quick start on plot building. so you won't be kept staring at the screen for character introduction for the first 20 minutes, but instead, you will be at the edge of your seat early in the movie

it seemed to me it was like just any other drama movie i watched before (i didn't read the review on this movie before i downloaded it) so let me spoil it for you *evil grin* it got a few things to do with the supernatural beings. so you can expect a lil bit of gory-ness and some heart pumping moments (remember, these descriptions are relative to the author's shallow understanding of descriptive writing xp)

but what caught my attention, which is after the movie is finished, was the metaphor behind the story (is metaphor the right word now?hmmm...) i've never read any stephen king book before (jgn nak gelak r) but i'll definitely try if someone ever buy me one hahaha

seriously, if you the kind of person who likes movies that kinda have that moving effect on viewers, you should really try this one. yes pidah, maybe you should too xp

the movie really shows, when humans are put under extreme selection pressure, like attacked by supernatural being that obviously can kill in a single strike, they'll 'mutate' and start to lose one thing that Allah has given that makes them special above other creation, akal. and those who fail and succumb to the pressure, will be left with nothing but eternal darkness (sounds a lil bit crappy ain't it? but you can put it together, can't you? xp)

kongsi

2008-06-08T07:22:00.000+08:00

bismillah

since dah lame tak update, let me share something with people who do open this blog

Camne nak gune google utk cari benda yg anda mahu hehe

“parent directory ” /appz/ -xxx -html -htm -php -shtml -opendivx -md5 -md5sums

“parent directory ” DVDRip -xxx -html -htm -php -shtml -opendivx -md5 -md5sums

“parent directory “ Xvid -xxx -html -htm -php -shtml -opendivx -md5 -md5sums

“parent directory ” Gamez -xxx -html -htm -php -shtml -opendivx -md5 -md5sums

“parent directory ” MP3 -xxx -html -htm -php -shtml -opendivx -md5 -md5sums

“parent directory ” Name of Singer or album -xxx -html -htm -php -shtml -opendivx -md5 -md5sums

notice the highlighted word. here's how it works. you change the word to anything that you want to find. mp3 ke, pdf ke etc. you can also put in the name of the singer ke, movie title or anytin. you are lucky if you found a page such as this, using google.com search engine,

check it!
NB: server page ni dah ditutup sbb kebanyakan series dlm page ni dah abis, so link die mostly dah rosak.so don't bother trying to download it from there

this kind of page is called, or at least is agreed as, 'open directory'. you can directly download the files straight from it's server without having to go through any third party like rapidshare and what not

but here's the catch. like p2p (peer to peer) sharing method, you can have anything you want as long as someone else is wiling to share. in this case, you can have it if someone else put it up on their server. so make sure you cross all your finger when you're pushing the enter button on google page xp

you can also use this string

?intitle:index.of? mp3

use the same method as above

so i hope this will do good to you as it did to me, well at least most of the time. if anyone do use this, pls put it to good use. i'm just sharing knowledge that i have. hopefully we can fully utilize the net. so guna ilmu ni elok2 tau. jgn cari benda bukan2 sudah. nnt masuk saham aku x)

happy trying x)

definitely not me xp

p/s: now you know where i get all my series from xp

chocolate?

2008-06-05T12:20:00.000+08:00

bismillah

last night as i was browsing for movies to download, i stumbled upon a review. it reads 'we all go to the movie to escape from reality'. damn right we are

when i think about it, it's true isn't it. i remember once cikgu sam (cikgu bm stj) told a story about how some people in India would burn the cinema if this 'need' was not fulfill. he said that, people over there are mostly poor people and are longing to feel being rich even if it is just for an hour and a half. so that's why you can rarely find a bollywood movies with poor people in it. kalau ade pon sorg dua je, yg laen kaya2 belaka. and kalau ade cerita yg watak die smua miskin, tak lama lagi terbakarla pawagam tu. some reality that is huh? and by saying that doesn't mean i watch many bollywood movies. just enough to justify the theory xp

i always said that i only watch realistic movie and don't really prefer all the fantasy stuff. not knowing that by saying that i'm actually contradicting myself. well of course i only realize this after i think about what the review wrote. i guess i just didn't think enough *sigh*

btw, i watched this movie 'chocolate'. the title didn't make much sense when i read the review. neither did it make any much after i watched the movie. it's a thai movie and the main protagonist is cute, who would care. right? xp it's about a girl who has autism and some awesome kick-ass martial art moves and she is also cute. have i said cute before? xp

but to me i'm more interested in the cool fighting scenes. i've watched ong bak, and this is like the reincarnation of that, with a girl instead of a man. why i wrote reincarnation? cuz ong bak is old, and lame. multiple angle shots for one stunt? tell me that's lame and old-dated.

movies ain't all that bad. sometimes movies are just like reading books. of course with less beneficial input than books, but a lil less work on imagining stuff. i'm talking bout fiction books of course. nothing can beat a non-fict book when it comes to being beneficial. just make the smart choices

after all, life's all about that, making choices. we know that there are only two ends for this life

i'm just reminding myself =)

Nothing important...

Final entry.

what PBL can do to you

hit and miss

Lunch quickie

Rant

Sekolah Kebangsaan Taman Nirwana.

E.A.S.Y

That's funny.

nom nom nom

rawrrr!!!

Bafana, bafana...

Because you love me

good 'ol Lady Justice

memento

haven't met you yet

broccoli

basketbleh...

neutral

tooth fairy exam

*insert title here*

M.I.A

kerana nila setitik

(put title here)

Gossips, uuu...

L.O.L

Edinburgh is not habitable

read this if you like Chelsea FC

back on the map...

cure for cancer might just be this

can't we just grow money on trees?

something for the rage...

sunny day...

Are you a bucket-filler or a dipper?

module structure...

question...

holidays start now...

x)

and it came to pass...

*sakit*...

last day...

ireland

New World Order...

long time no see..

sunshine through my window...

sunday morning, rain is falling...

me (english) has rotten...

remember, remember...

the worst...

pride of london...

c'mon...

untitled...

sel-fish..

am i in too deep?..

stuff the ball up in my ***...

tempat duduk arthur...

bon appétit...

i see dead people...

is the world already at its end?..

sami yusof..

surprise, surprise..

open house..

weekend...

liar

pressured...

virtual reality...

a start for the day...

ridiculous!..

tv licence...

catching up...

awaited pics...

everything has a hikmah...

eid or no eid?..

just an ordinary day?..

yippee!...

i'm here..

top form?..

all's (not very) well, (hopefully will) end well...

stuck..

dah agak dah

insert title here

sakit...

dreaming

intai-intai